For Edd, I Will (KevEdd)

You Think I'm a Good Catch?

Kevin's awareness made him feel awkward at school on Monday. He thought everyone knew - everyone who looked at him was secretly judging him. Kevin knew this was completely illogical, but he still thought it. When he spotted Edd passing in the hallway, laughing at something Eddy was saying, he felt his stomach clench because Kevin had realized another problem that was as big as learning he might be gay. He had no idea what to do about it in regards to Edd.

The usual rumors floated around the school about various people - none of them had ever suggested Edd was gay. He was not one of the ones suspected through gossip or anything. Kevin didn't remember if Edd dated anyone, but then Edd hadn't been on his radar for years, so he wasn't sure. Then again, Kevin had gone on dates with girls, so even if Edd had, that might not mean anything. It was so confusing. Asking a girl out would be so much easier. If she turned him down - no big deal, but if he asked a guy out and the guy wasn't gay, the humiliation would be incredible.

Besides, they were developing a good friendship, and Kevin didn't want to wreck that. He looked forward to hanging out with Edd during their homework sessions because their conversation would drift away from schoolwork to other exciting topics, and Kevin loved to hear Edd's opinions on everything. He knew he would miss that if he fucked things up by coming onto Edd if Edd wasn't interested.

Kevin knew that if he came onto him, Edd would handle it graciously and never mention it, but it would stop their developing friendship, and Kevin didn't want that.

So, after school on Monday, Edd texted Kevin that he was home from his yearbook meeting. Kevin shortly found himself at the now-familiar spot at the table, his glass of water next to the homework in front of him, feeling utterly awkward with no idea what to say. Edd didn't seem to notice Kevin's awkwardness, though, as he spoke to Kevin as if nothing monumental had happened the day before. It hadn't for him; it only had for Kevin.

Edd did notice that Kevin was acting strange. Kevin was usually just as talkative, if not more so than Edd. Today, Kevin quietly settled into his homework, barely looking at Edd or speaking to him. Edd wondered about this as he worked on his chemistry homework. Edd hadn't even seen Kevin over the weekend, just a few times as Kevin left to go out somewhere, sometimes giving a wave to Edd as they left. Edd knew nothing had happened - he couldn't have done anything to make Kevin upset - but the other boys' quietness bothered him.

Edd also saw how nervous Kevin looked. Kevin was unconsciously tapping his pen against the table, he kept bouncing his leg up and down, and he kept taking his cap off to run his hand through his short, red hair. This movement was distracting to Edd, who was used to silence and stillness while working. Edd gave up trying to work on his homework and watched Kevin fidget.

"Is everything all right, Kevin?" Edd finally asked, his voice sounding loud in the quiet kitchen. It startled Kevin, who looked at Edd with a guilty expression that set Edd wondering even more.

"Yeah, Double D," Kevin said, his voice stressed. "Everything's good. Why?"

"You just seem a little nervous," Edd said. "I hope everything is all right in your geometry class."

"Oh, it is. I think Travers is happy. Um, my homework has been good. I mean, we'll see after the exam Monday, but it's good." Kevin mumbled all of this as he looked down at his schoolbook. Edd barely made out what he said.

"Oh, okay, Kevin, if you say so," Edd said. He thought a moment before saying a little hesitantly. "You know, if you need to talk about something, I would be more than happy to listen. I know it can help to talk things over with someone if something is bothering one."

Kevin kept his eyes on his book, then propped his elbow on the table to palm his forehead. "It's nothing, really, Double D," he muttered, then an idea struck him. If he carefully approached this, he might test the waters for both Edd and himself. "I guess, I don't know. There's just someone I'm interested in, and I'm not sure if they like me back."