decide - jikook/vmin

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"Fuck, you really make it hard for me, babe.", I heard Taehyung's husky voice from behind me. I chuckled a little and turned around. "I don't know what you mean.", I answered playfully. He smirked while still having his hands on my waist.

His face got closer to mine and he whispered in my ear, "Oh, you know exactly what I mean." With his hands he pulled me closer to him and our crotches met. I moaned at the friction, wanting more. He leaned in but his lips didn't touch mine.

I didn't think clearly in this moment, the alcohol in my body made me careless. I took the initiative and kissed him. Our mouths moved in synch. My whole body tingled.

We just stood there, in the middle of the dance floor, kissing. I didn't care if someone saw us, I just wanted to feel Taehyung. After some time he pulled away. I pouted at that which left him laughing. "As much as I want to do more, baby. We agreed that we would wait until you decide.", he leaned his forehead on mine.

My heart fluttered. I was drunk and willingly to kiss him and he didn't take advantage of that even though I know how much he wants it. Does he really love me that much?

"Let's go back, huh?" With a hand around my waist we went to Jin first to tell him we were leaving. Of course I noticed Jin's smug look at me but I ignored it. I knew for sure, he would tease me for weeks because of that.

Afterwards we walked home, his hands still around my waist. No words were said, we just enjoyed each others warmth. I snuggled into his side and the grip on my waist got tighter. While we were walking, I looked up to the moon and stars and I couldn't help but wonder what Taehyung meant with the story he told me during the flight. I smiled to the moon. Maybe Taehyung was my sun.

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The other day came quickly and before I realized it we were sitting on the plane on the way home. Jin on my left side, Taehyung on my right. "Ahh, as much as I enjoyed it I'm happy to sleep in my bed again.", Jin said with closed eyes.

"Can't relate, I would love to spend more time in Paris.", Taehyung replied while looking in my eyes. I didn't say anything, because I didn't know what to say. Part of me was happy to come back home, to come back to Jungkook. But the other part wanted that week to never end.

If I'm being honest I just wanted to be alone for some time. Figure out my feelings for Jungkook and for Taehyung. I tried to push yesterday night to the back of my head but every time I just glanced at the direction of Taehyung, I felt his lips on mine. I felt sick, sick because I am a cheater. A fucking cheater. Tears brimmed in the corner of my eyes when I thought about Jungkook and how hurt and disappointed he would be if he finds out that I am kissing another man behind his back. My ex out of all people. But I wiped the tears away quickly before Jin or Taehyung noticed them.

Jin obviously knew something happened between me and Taehyung. And I had the feeling that he favors Taehyung more than Jungkook. If it's because Jin noticed that Jungkook ignored me the whole week and how it hurt me or because Taehyung is just too handsome, I didn't know.

The plane landed and the whole crew stood at the airport. "The week was incredible, you all did a great job!", my manager said to us. "You all get a few weeks vacation because you worked so hard. Bye bye, see you later!", and she walked off. The other model soon followed, just like Jin. Me and Taehyung were the last ones. "Ready to go?", he asked me and I nodded even though I knew I wasn't.

I wasn't ready to see Jungkook again. To see why he ignored all my calls and messages.

The car ride was silent. Taehyung must have noticed that I wasn't in the mood to talk and I couldn't be more thankful for that. I had this weird feeling in my stomach, like I knew something bad is going to happen. But who am I kidding, something bad had already happened. How much worse could it possibly get?

Just a few minutes before we arrived at mine and Jungkook's house, Taehyung said, "Hey, everything's gonna be okay. You have my number and my address, if something happens, I'm here for you, okay?" I just nodded.

Taehyung's car parked in front of our house and it felt so strange. It didn't feel like home. Taehyung helped me with my luggage and then we stood there. Not knowing how to say goodbye. "Ehm, yeah. See you sometime, I guess...", I awkwardly said.

Taehyung, however, didn't care and pulled me in for a hug. I guess probably because he's scared that this will be the last time he has the chance to. "Please, call me, Jiminie." "I will." With that he left. I watched his car move out of our entrance and drive away. I sighed.

I stood in front of our house for a few minutes, mentally preparing myself to meet Jungkook again. He probably wasn't even at home.

But when I opened the front door and heard loud moaning coming from upstairs, I knew Jungkook was home.

My heart broke as I heard Jungkook's moans loud and clear as I stood at the entrance of our house. A silent tear rolled down my cheek as I let the backpack fall down from my shoulder to the ground and listened to my husband cheating on me. Slowly, I walked backwards out of the house. I let the door shut, not caring if Jungkook heard it or not. I didn't even let out a sob as I walked away from the house which held so many beautiful but also so many bad memories.

I didn't turn around when I thought of all the memories with Jungkook.

I didn't turn around when the front door opened and I heard Jungkook yelling my name.