Delilah

Chapter 2

Today's probably one of the worst days yet to come. I don't even feel anything I'm numb. I haven't cried for two days. Rick told Jake, Dalia, and Olly two days ago too. They've tried to call me and check on me but I haven't replied. They stopped though so I think they understand that I need space.

I've been ready for hours. I've just been sitting on my window ledge watching the rain. It's so peaceful. Like mom. I don't know when we're going but I can hear Rick talking to someone downstairs but I'm too drained to even bother asking whom it is.

*knock knock*  "come in" I looked towards the door and Rick came in motioning for me to go. I slowly got up sighing and made my way towards him and he wrapped his arm around my shoulder guiding me down stairs. We got to the car and he opened the door for me. I couldn't even give him a fake smile. I'm so tired.

We got to the cemetery and I saw a few people I didn't recognise but I was too unfazed to even care. I made my way over too her casket and placed a white Rose on top. She's always loved white roses.

I could feel a tight knot form in my throat. I knew I would break down here. Why in front of everyone. I hate attention. I despice it. Mom never brought attention to me because she respected that I didn't like it nor could I handle it.

I turned to face the other graves so I could wipe my tears before anyone could notice. Nobody did notice. Well except for Olly who came and wrapped his hands around my torso pulling me closer to him. As he pulled me in I let out a sob. I cried into his shoulder whilst he carressed my back telling me it's okay. Eventually Dalia and Jake approached behind me and wrapped there arms around us. Group hug.

As the priest spoke, I looked around at the others. I knew a few of them but the rest I didn't know at all? Who the hell are these people. Some are even crying but why? How did they know mom? Why didn't I know them? I heard a car engine running and chose to ignore it but after a few minutes it was still running so I looked up. There was a black audiR8 V10 with tinted windows parked at the end of the graveyard along with two black Mercedes benz G800 Brabus with blacked out windows. I know a lot about cars because of Rick. Who are they? I think whoever was in the audi noticed me staring as they flashed there lights causing me to put my head back down and watch them lower her casket.

I couldn't handle this. My heart rate began increasing rapidly as my breathing pitched up higher. Seeing them lower her into a hole with dirt just felt so wrong. My legs went causing me to drop to the floor. I didn't bother standing up I just sat there crying so hard. I felt arms trying to pull me up but I resisted and they did too because whoever it was sat behind me and pulled me into their chest. I clutched onto their shirt as I sobbed into their chest. It was jake. I could smell his colongne from anywhere.

"Make it s-stop please. I need it to go. make the p-pain g-go please ja-jake I can't -I can't do this w-without her! P-please make it s-Stop" I cried out into his chest. I didn't even know if he understood what I was saying.
"Ssshhh it's okay baby it's okay" he whispered into my ear as he stroked my hair. Maybe he did hear me. It must've been an hour we've been sat here because everyone went home. It started to rain and jake insisted we go home but I cried even more. I dont want to go home. I wanted to stay here. Close to her. She may be underground right now but I'm next too her. It started to pour down off rain and my lip started to quiver. I should've brought a jacket. But I dont care about the cold Im too sad. I'm numb.

I felt two arms move under my body and then I was lifted into of course jakes arms. I stated crying and wriggling around telling him to let me go. No matter how much I moved and hit his chest, he didn't stop. I gave up and just continued crying. I looked up and saw the cars were still here. Who the hell were they. I was too drained to speak to even ask jake. He knew I was looking at them though because he turned to look too and tightened his grip around me and glared at the audi. I chose to ignore his reaction and snuggled my head into his neck and drifted off too sleep.