Punk=Outsider

Chapter 4

-matt-

I had been chasing after Izzy in the pool when all of a sudden her alarm went off. We got out and I looked at the time. "We still have an hour and a half befor the concert why'd you set it so early?" I ask as I dry off. I didn't wanna go smelling like clorine so I alotted time for showers duh" she said as she headed up to the room. When we got back she called out "I got bathroom first" and she ran past me sticking out her tounge. I just laughed and stuck my tounge out to her even though she had already shut the door. I sat and watched tv for a few mins before I decided I didnt really care if I smelled like clorine its not like anyone was gonna care. I started to dry off a little better and change out of my wet swim suit, when all of sudden the bathroom door opened and I heard "ok its all...." she stopped dead in her tracks. I quickly grabbed my towel and could feel myself turning red all over as I just grabbed my clean clothes and ran to the bathroom. 'Fuck fuck fuck' I thought to myself as I closed the door to the bathroom.

-izzy-
'Oh my god I can't believe I just seen him naked damnit now things are gonna be akward fuck fuck fuck' I thought to myself as Matt ran past me to the bathroom with his clothes and towel. He must have decided not to take a shower. I should have know he doesn't care what people think of him.
He finally came out of the bathroom and we headed to the venue being as we had vip we had to be there early anyways. Unfortunatley the car ride was extremly akward and quiet. Until Matt finally said "I'm sorry I should have warned you I was changeing in there" I looked at him for a minute when he started to blush I laughed and said "how matt yelling through the door 'hey izzy I'm naked don't come out'" I started laughing even harder and so did he. We got out and walked up to the vip line and waited the longer we waited the more nervous I got. I told Matt I was running to the bathroom and I'd be back before they called vip in and he nodded. What I was really doing would have killed him. When I got to the bathroom I locked myself in a stall and pulled my box from my purse. When I looked at it I thought about what I was about to do and decided it was ok because my nerves were so high it would help calm me down. I opened the box and took out a blade and started to slide it down my arm just a small one to help with everything going around in my head at that moment. I stayed for another second before grabbing toilet paper and pressing it to it to stop the bleeding and cleaned myself up before I went back to Matt.
"Better?" He asked when I came back. I nodded then it was time for us to go in. I grabbed Matts arm from being so nervous I needed him to steady me as we walked through and were seated for Set It Off to play an acoustic set of two songs and of course one was you are loved. I started to feel so guilty for going to the bathroom to cut when I should be so happy right now.
We were the last in line to meet the guys and I was even more nervous now then I was before. When we got up there I gave Max, Zack, Dan, and Austin all hugs and got pics with them and then it was time to meet Cody I was so nervous he was my favorite singer I looked up to him he was one of my heros why would he be happy to meet a fucked up loser like me. I started to chicken out and inch away when Matt caught my arm and of course by the cut. I whinced a little. "What's wrong?" He asked then before I could say anything I heard Cody ask if I was ok I just smiled and said "yea we had a long drive here I must have slept on my arm wrong" Matt looked at me and I seen shock cross his face he looked at me and grabbed my arm and pulled my sleeve up "Izzy why?" Was all he could say. I looked from him to Cody and did the only thing I could think of before the tears fell free I ran out.

-matt-
After she ran off I looked at Cody and apoligized and before I could go after her he said he wanted to help me find her and see if he could help he hated that any of his fans felt it nessecary to do that. We went looking for her a few fans outside pointed Cody in the direction of my car. When we got there she had that stupid box in her hands again and tears flowing down her cheeks. "IZZY" I screamed louder than I wanted to. I opened the door and snatched the box from her and her sobs got louder then Cody was there and pulled her in for a hug and was shushing her so she'd calm down and stop crying hysterically. "Izzy right?" He looked back to me to make sure. "Izzy lets go to my bus and talk about this ok I wanna help you." He said to her and all she did was nod. He pointed toward a huge tour bus behind the venue and lead us there I walked with my arm around her shoulders and her head on mine.

-cody-
I couldnt believe a beautiful girl like that felt the need to harm herself. I may not have experince in this but I know who did and I know I had to help her. This happened for a reason. I was not losing another fan. I lead the two of them back to the bus and when we got on I offered them drinks and the girl wanted alchol but I didn't give her any because I didnt want her to start bleeding like crazy again.
I jestered for them to sit on the couch and I sat across from them. I stared at the girl for a mintue before asking her why, why here? She looked up at me and said "because I could feel people staring at me and talking and just got so nervous it doesn't matter it was stupid and you probably hate that I'm a fan. I don't deserve to be a fan" I just looked at her in shock "you don't know anything about this band at all then. I love all my fans no matter what you deserve to be a fan of whatever band you want. And I'm happy its ours and I want to help you if I can." I finally said to her she just looked down at her hands while tears still streamed down her cheeks. "Look Izzy I understand if you don't want to but will you at least stay after the show and talk to me some more?" I asked her and she nodded. I let them know the show was starting so we all left the bus and went our sepearte ways till after.

-izzy-
Even though I had been found out I couldn't help but try to enjoy the show. I mean holy fuck one of my favorite lead singers actually took an interest in helping me. I never thought that would happen.

-matt-
I couldn't believe Cody was seriously gonna try and help my best friend. Her favorite bands are so much better than mine, I thought to myself. As the show started I could tell she was trying to have a good time. But it wasn't working until Set It Off took the stage as soon as she seen Cody, Max, Dan, Zack, and Austin she screamed her head off and jumped like crazy when they told her to. What she didn't realize is Cody was keeping an eye on her to make sure she was doing alright.

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