Punk=Outsider

Chapter 20

A/n: very descriptive chapter meaning sexual content

Izzy
I could hear Matt pleading with me through the door not to do it but the razor felt so nice in my hands and it was calling to skin. I can't believe she is still blaming me for all of this. I can't believe she never even wanted me. Why did she keep me then why not abort me or give me up for adoption. "Izzy baby please I love you put the razor down and come out. We're all here for you please baby come out and let me hold you" Matt said soundong like he was crying. Oh god I did this to him I'm tearing him apart doing this. I thought as I set the razor on the sink and opened the door. Before it even opened all the way Matt rushed in and enveloped me in his arms. "I'm so sorry sweetie I love you so much don't listen to whatever was said in the letter none of this is your fault nothing that has happened is your fault" he said. With thise words I broke down sobbing. "Guys I'm gonna put her to bed we'll see you in the morning ok" Matt tokd the rest of the guys and they nodded all taking turns givingb me hugs and kissing my cheek. "Come on baby let's get changed" he said. As we walked into the room I got a sudden urge. I stopped at the bed and turned to face him. He looked at me confused before I crashed my lips to his.
He was hesitant at first but then enveloped me in his arms again and started kissing me back. He swiped his tounge across my bottom lip making me shiver and allow him access to my mouth. As we made out of pulled him with me s I laid down n the bed. He pulled back to look me in the eyes. "Matt I need you. I need to feel your love please make love to me" I begged. And with that his mouth was on mine again and his hands were wondering around my body. They went to the hem of my shirt and slowly guided it up till he pulled back to pull it over my head. This time instead of going for my mouth he went straight to my neck. He kissed and suckeled his way down my neck to my chest, down my chest to my stomach and to the top of my pants. As he undid the buutons and pulled them down he nipped at my thighs. "I love you so much Izzy" he said as he then pulled my panties down. "Yake off your bra baby" he said huskily. I did as I was told. He stood up and started to take his clothes off as well. "Do you have a condom baby" he asked. "No but I trust you Matt I want you now" I said. He smiled and undid his pants and let them slip to his ankles before stepping out of them. Before he tookhis boxers off he scooted me uo the bed so we weren't on the end but instead of laying back on top of me he layed to the side of me. I looked at him confused as to why he didn't get completely naked and why he didn't climb back on me. " I want to go slow and show you how beautiful and loved you really are" he said as he traced my lips with his finger. I sighed and nodded.
First we started kissing slowly but passionatley. He moved his hand from my cheek to my breast. He gently squezzed it and played with the nipple as he moved from my mouth to my neck leaveing small kisses along the way and whispering how beautiful I was. How perfect I was to him as he moved his hand to the other breast I arched my back and let out a moan. "I think we need to turn on some music don't you?" He said on a chuckle. As he got up to get the remote and turn to the music channel for punk rock and turned it up quit a bit. He turned to me and came back beside me. Slowly starting his decent down with his hand. "Do you have any idea how hard it was to not touch you or show you how I felt about you in highschool. You were and still are the most beautiful girl I have ever known" he said as his fingers lightly brushed my most sensitive area and I moaned. "W-why did you wait so long" I asked panting now. "Because I didn't think you thought of me that way" he said as he put more pressure there and I arched so much that my breast were now in his face. He looked me over intently as he continued to rub that amazing little pleasure nub between my legs. "God you have no idea how incredebly beautiful and sexy I find you" he said before placing a sweet kiss to my lips and ducking his had to take one nipple into his mouth. "Gonna cum.. want you inside me.... now" I managed to say before he finally shed his boxers to reveal his completely hard and throbbing member. As he kissed me passioinatley he slowly thrust into me. "Matt" I moaned as he continuted to slowly thrust in and out. He took my legs and put them in his shoulder switching the angle he was thrusting at and hit my g-spot. "MATT" I screamed a little to loudly cause him to chuckle and thrust faster hitting that spot everytime making me cleanch and uncleanch around him. "Oh Izzy I'm not gonna last much longer" he panted. "Me either" I said and with that he thrust a few more times and had us both cumming on muffled screames and I screamed into the pillow he screamed into my neck.
As we caught out breath he let my legs down on either side of him and rested his head on my chest. "I love you" I said as I ran my fingers thriygh his sweaty hair. "I love you to. You need something to drink" he asked and I nodded as I grabbed a smoke when he rolled off of me and I covered up.

Matt
As I got off of her and put on my boxers and a pair of shorts Izzy grabbed a smoke and covered herself. "I'll be right back I'm sure we traumitized the guys" I laughed and so did she. I left the room as quietly as I could I didn't know if the guys went to bed or not. When I went down the hall I almost ran right into Josh. "Oh shit sorry man" I said. He laughed and said "its ok man is it safe to go back in the studio room now" he laughed making me blush. "Yea sorry about that" its fine its your place dude I'm not gonna tell you not to do that." He said as he walked the the room and went inside. I went and got Izzy a water and went back to the room she had finished her smoke and was dozing off slightly. So I out the water on the stand shut the lights off and turned the music down. I crawled into bed beside her under the covers and pulled her to me. She layed her head on my cheat and drifted to sleep I layed there and thought about how much I loved her and slowly drifted to sleep.