Punk=Outsider

Chapter 11

A/N
Okay this chapter is completely in Izzys pov
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After giving Josh a hug he went and introduced himself to Matt that was sweet of him. I noticed that they went into a different room to talk I wonder what about. When they didn't come right back out I got back into the conversation with the sio guys and the rest of mtrench. I still couldn't believe that they were all here in my apartment. I didn't know where they were all gonna stay I mean it is a pretty big apartment but not big enough for 11 people unless the guys didn't mind sleeping in the living room on the floor or bunking up in the guest room or my writing room.
"So Izzy how did you find our music?" Asked Matt Webb. I looked up and smiled I could feel myself blush. "I was looking at the recomended videos on my youtube account and I seen the thumbnail for 'heres to the zeros' and thought Josh was cute so I clicked on it. I think I spent 5 hours looking up and listening to your music in one day." I felt my cheeks get even brighter red when I felt Matt put his arms around me I looked back and I seen Josh just leaning agaist the wall just watching us all. He noticed me and smiled. I looked away before I blushed more. Matt and Cody were talking like they had been friends for years and I ended up getting hungry so did the guys so we ordered pizza and I ushered everyone into the living room so we could sit down. "Ok guys I just realized this is gonna get like extremely confusing we have two Matts here" I said as we all got settled in me sitting on my boyfriends lap to make room on the couch. The all laughed and agreed with me "how about we refer to our Matt as Webb and your boyfriend as Matt" Josh suggested we all thought about it and agreed that'd work. "I have another question and don't get me wrong this is fucking amazing my two favorite bands in my home. But what are you guys doing here?" I asked. They all looked at each other and it stayed quiet for a few mins before Cody finally spoke up and said "how about tonight we just have fun and let us get to know you two better and we'll explain what we're doing here tommorow" I looked from him to everyone around the room then to Matt and he just smiled and nodded his approval to me. So I went along with it.
"Ok Izzy tell us about yourself" said Mike. I looked at him and I must have looked like a deer caught in headlights cause everyone started to giggle at me. I blushed big that time and said "there's not really much to tell. I moved out of my parents house the minute I turned 18 I'm a cashier at a gas station and I date this butthead here" I giggled when Matt scoffed at that last part. "Well what else like do you have any siblings?" Cody asked. I looked back at Matt and he whispered 'its ok to tell them about the past and your family Izzy they aren't here to hurt you' I looked back to all the guys and thought for a second before finally speaking. "I have 2 older brothers one was Matts friend before I was and the other I havent talked to for a really long time and don't think I ever will again" I kept my eyes on my hands that were tightly clasped in me lap when I heard someone clear their throat I looked up to see who it was and suprisingly it was Josh. "Why haven't you spoke to him if I might ask?" I looked at him before I realized it there were tears in my eyes "oh my no no no don't worry about it Izzy you don't have to tell us I'm sorry I asked" Josh said coming over to rub my back along with Matt "no its fine. Um my oldest brother Jason is the one I don't talk to anymore" I stated then I went on to explain everything that happend with him and why I want nothing to do with him. "He doesn't even know I finally moved out and doesn't know where I live. I'm scared of him finding me one day and trying all of that again and me being to weak to fight him off" I said. When I finally looked up and looked at all of them includeing Matt and they all looked like they were ready to kill someone. We were all silent for a long time until there was a knock at the door and Josh stood up sayimg he'd get it and he was paying for the pizza he was out of the room before I could protest though. When he finally came back Cody was the first one to speak up. "I'm so sorry someone as sweet as you ever had to go through that. He is a scumbag and I'll be damned if he ever lays a hand on you again as long as we're friends" he said and the rest of them agreed with him.I couldn't help but just smile at them all. "Ok enough of this sad shit let's eat" I finally said grabbing a slice of pizza and stuffing my face.
After a couple hours all the pizza was gone and the guys were talking amongst themselves while me and Matt cuddled. I suddenly got up and went to the bathroom but not before turning and seeing the worried look Matt gave the guys. 'Oh fuck does he know has he heard me. I thought I taught muself to keep it queit. I can't back down now though its good for me I'll feel better once I have that pizza out of me.' I thought to myself like I have thousands of times before kneeling in front of that toliet and jamming my fingers down my throat and everything in me came back out. When I was done of course I was crying as always. So I leaned against the door. I don't know how long I was leaning there before a knock at it had me jumping and I felt someone push on the door. "Izzy come out please we know what's going on please come talk to us" I recognized that voice Josh was at the door begging me to come out and talk to everyone about what I just did. I can't do that can I.

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