The Follower (BTSxYoongi)

19 - Blank

Hoseok pov

Yoongi had filed us out of the room as quick as he could with Baby still at the front. Although, when he pushed me to go after Jimin and Taehyung, I just shook my head and waiting for everyone else to follow Baby.

I had seen the look he had in his eyes.

It was a look I recognised as I used to see it every day. Every day when I had looked in the mirror.

The blankness.

Like nothing was there at all.

Like the person was a living corpse.

That was the look.

And it wasn't a good one.

I used to use it to hide my fear, and basically anything I didn't want people to see. I would hide all my emotions by having a blank look. I even unconsciously still used it sometimes. In certain moments I would just shut off completely because I didn't want to deal with things. I used it when I was younger, and it became a daily thing. Until I joined BTS. When I joined them, I no longer needed it.

I could be myself around them. But they all had their own problems and recently I had been struggling again.

Having the nightmares. Sometimes even daymares.

So, I had been using that blankness trick to hide it all. To make everyone else think I was fine. That I was ok. When I wasn't. I really wasn't.

That was the look.

And I hated seeing it on him.

He didn't look right with that emotionless stare. It made my skin crawl and my heart palpitate. I wanted to do everything in my power to make comfortable. To make him reveal his emotions.

It was weird. I hadn't known him for long. Of course, he had known us for a long time. But I hadn't known him for long. And yet I felt like I connected with him. Like I could trust him. And like I needed to help him.

Which was what I was going to do.

So, I waited. Waited for everyone else to have started to follow Baby. Then I walked out, keeping a close eye on Yoongi and his movements.

I wouldn't lose track of him. I knew he was hiding something. That blankness was the trick to hide anything and everything. He was up to something. And either I would help him or stop him. Whichever one fitted the situation. I just hoped he wasn't planning anything silly. Like going off and trying to find that man on his own. That would be a stupid thing to do. But somehow, I had a feeling it would be something he might do.

And so, I stayed just in front of him. Keeping one eye on him and the another on Joon in front of me. Making sure I didn't lose either of them.

———Time Skip———

(Still Hoseok pov)

We had gone down a couple of corridors now. There were amazingly no guards. That struck me as weird though. Why wouldn't there be patrolling guards?

Anyway, I couldn't focus on that. I needed to stay focused on Yoongi and Joon.

Yoongi still kept his slightly lowered body moving forward, creeping with a practiced ease. He again reminded me of a cat. Walking so silently on his feet. Just like a cat.

And then there was Joon. He walked like his normal self. Slightly clumsily but still sophisticated. Although he had the same posture as Yoongi, with his chest angled down a little towards the ground and his knees kept bent the whole time he walked. He seemed to be very focused on keeping this position as he kept walking.

Back to Yoongi again. His eyes were glancing around. They looked better than before. They had some light to them. He looked like he was trying to take in every single detail of every single thing. Wanting to keep it all in his head. The blank look had almost disappeared, with just a hint of determination peeking through.

The sudden stop of Joon stole my attention. I glanced around him to see that everyone else had also stopped.

Min and Tae had a look of anxiousness, and maybe a bit of fear, written across their faces. While Jinnie looked like he was ready to jump in front of them to protect them. His, as the ARMYs called it, motherly side coming out.

Then there was Kook.

He seemed to be holding up fine. But when I took a closer look, I noticed something. He had his hand gently grasping Jinnie's oversized purple jumper. It was like a little lifeline for him.

And last but not least was Joon.

He looked like he was using his intelligence to calm himself down. He was consoling himself by quietly repeating that it was illogical to panic under his breath.

My eyes were drawn back to the front as Baby ran past me. He went straight to Yoongi and started talking to him in a hushed tone. It was too quick and faint for me to hear. And the next second, they were both off rushing down the corridor back to where Baby had come from.

I went to follow them but Joon and Kook stopped me.

"We need to stay together. Yoongi is strong enough to take care of himself and I'm sure it's the same with Baby if he's here. We need to protect each other by staying together. C'mon, let's just wait for them to come back," Joon mumbled as quietly as he could. He was begging me through his eyes.

I could tell that as the leader he felt responsible for us, especially in such a horrible situation. I knew he just wanted us to be safe, but I wanted to follow them. I didn't want Yoongi going through with whatever was on his mind. But I knew Joon was right. And I could see the effect it was having on Kook.

Even though he was trying to hide his fear, it still showed. In the way he stood completely still and yet his hands shook slightly. The way his eyes flittered from one corner of the room to the other. He was scared. I couldn't leave him like this.

He needed me.

So, I would stay with him.

However much I wanted to follow Yoongi, my friends came first. They had been here for me for over seven years now. I had been there for them as well. I couldn't stop myself from being here for them.

I would be able to keep a closer eye on Yoongi later. I just hoped that Baby stopped him from doing anything reckless.

So, with a confused heart, I turned all of my attention to Kook.

I gently pulled his hands into mine and lightly rubbed my thumbs over his smooth skin. He had glanced up when I took his hands, and I just stared into his eyes. Keeping my gaze steady and letting him find comfort in being around his hyungs. I knew he could be strong and tough, but it was these moments when he needed someone that was the most important. When he was vulnerable. That was when he needed someone the most. So, we would be here. I would be here.

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A/N

Hey everyone!

Happy Birthday to J-Hope too!!!!

Due to the special occasion, and my terrible updating schedule (I'm so sorry, this year has just been really busy for me), here's a double update!

I hope you enjoyed! Have an amazing night/day!

MD xx