In a mood for chaos

Nothing lasts forever

Toni's POV

Sober Cheryl was a handful enough, not to mention how unbearable she was when she was drunk or high. But this time it made me rethink everything.

"Cheryl?" I spoke up from under the covers of her bed when I heard the door open and something thumping in the kitchen.

I stood up to find her holding herself against the counter.

"Cheryl?!"
"H-Hey..."
"You're a mess!" I quickly grabbed her and tried my best to pull her to the bed.

I went to grab her water but when I went back she wasn't in her bed.

"What is this?!" She shouted, barely being able to pronounce the words correctly.
She was holding my phone, and it was unlocked.
"What Cheryl ?! What is what?!"
"You texted Betty I love you with some hearts."
"Cheryl Betty is my fucking best friend, what's wrong with you?!"
"Stop talking! Stupid slut." She whispered before clumsily approaching me and raising her arm to hit me.
Before I could cover myself with anything she slapped me hard on my cheek.

"CHERYL!" I screamed immediately. It's not like she has never done this but it was never like this. This time was different.

"You're cheating on me." She grabbed my jaw and pulled my hair back.

At that moment, I realized. She must have done something really bad and got wasted, because of how guilty she felt. And something tells me she cheated on me.

"Cheryl?" I cried out.
"What?!"
"Did you cheat on me tonight?" I asked as calm as I could, tears streaming down my face.
"Shut up!" She yelled loudly before slapping me again but harder. I know I could have ran. She's drunk as hell, she reeks of alcohol. I can run away. But I don't think that I'll ever come back if I leave now. I don't think it'll do me any harm if I wait till the morning. Just to hold her one last time till she sleeps peacefully.

But of course first she has to slap me again multiple times, force me to have rough sex with her, I didn't even get to orgasm and honestly how could I? This was getting sick.

I stayed silent during the 'sex'. I was used to pain, it wasn't pain that made me cry. It was her. I don't think it'll be easy to adjust to the life without her. Without her to drive us around and without looking at her grinding against that pole, without having mad fights with her, without fighting for her attention. It will be just too hard. I wonder if she's ever thought of that before. I wonder if she's thinking about it right now, while she's kissing my neck roughly and pushing her fingers inside of me. I just hugged her and cried silently. I was left with nothing else to do.

Finally, she threw herself on the bed, next to me.
I turned towards her and placed my palm on her red cheek.
"Antoinette..." She mumbled before a tear started gliding down her smooth face.

If I needed any more proof that she cheated on me, this was it.

"I know baby." I whispered, covering her mouth with my thumb. I couldn't control my tears at this point. I hugged her so hard, like I never did before.

I looked down, she fell asleep.
"Why Cher? Why?" I cried silently.
She ripped my heart out.

My cries woke her up at one point, it was very late.
"I would die for you Antoinette."
"No..." I cried again but harder and harder and harder.
"I love you baby..." She whispered weakly.
"Cheryl what got you so messed up."
"Whiskey and cocaine."
"Will you s-stop? From tonight. Please Cheryl. For me?" I looked at her but I guess she was to sleepy to actually make a promise.
"I will. I love you. Forever." That broke me so bad.

I thought this would last forever as well.