RUN AWAY || H.S

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝟏𝟔

Alana's POV.

The rest of the day, I didn't really leave my room. Except for getting some food and water. After taking a shower and taking two pills of Advil, I couldn't help but keep thinking about Harry. I remembered that I was the one who kissed him first. His lips felt heaven on mine. His body was so close to mine. Me and alcohol are never a good combo. I usually ramble a lot when I have alcohol in my system. At least, that's what Asher used to tell me.

Asher.

I miss him so fucking much. I miss him every single day. Even the thought of him makes me cry. He tried to help me, but I couldn't help him. He tried to save me. But, I couldn't save him from that monster. Only I could save myself from him. But, I couldn't do that as well. What I did is run away. Run Away from him. Run Away from them. Run Away from that life. Run Away from that country, the country that gave me so much hurt, tears, and pain. Run Away with Matthew. Matthew D'Silva. I hope he is safe somewhere.

That's all I could do. Hope. Because he told me to go and leave him behind. And, I selfishly left. I was too scared to stay there anymore. I just hope my little brother is safe.

If anyone in my place, the person would be afraid of any human touch. The things I have suffered from. The torture I have been through. I should be scared, scared, and scarred for life. I should be afraid of any human contact.

But I am not.

I am not scared anymore. Because I left that life behind. I am not going there back at any fucking condition. Never.

I am not scared of human contact because for the last five years I have been touched by those monsters. I have been touched and tortured by those dirty monsters, they made me feel filthy. And now, I crave human contact but in a loving way, in a caring way. Not intimately. Just how I felt when Kaira hugged me. She loves me. She cares about me. I do too. Even Niall, I can tell he cares.

But Harry, I can see in his eyes he wants something more from me. Something I can't give him. Something I won't give him. I am not going to put myself in the same situation that I run away from. Not for anybody. If it would have been five years ago or in any other situation, I would be falling to my knees for Harry. He is a charming guy.

This time, I'll do things for myself. For the first time, I won't do a thing for anybody else happiness. It's time to make myself happy.

This time I won't do anything to get their attention and love, just as I did with my parents. My Parents. I hate them. No. I loathe them. Just as much as I loathe them.

I did everything in my power to be noticed by them, by my oh so-called parents. I just wanted a little attention from them, a little love. I have three older sisters and one younger brother. They are loved. And, I am an unwanted child. A child who craved her parent's attention. And I got that when I turned 16. But at a prize that ruined my life. Ruined my happiness. Ruined me. At that time I didn't know what I did to get their love and attention but now, now I know.

This time I won't do that.

This time I'll be happy for myself.

Tomorrow I am going to ace that interview. But I won't kiss anybody's ass to get the job. Not even Harry's Uncle's ass.

This, this is my new life. A new fucking start. A new Alana D'Silva.

*Next Day*

I am ready for the day. I am ready for the interview. I am wearing the same dress we brought from the mall the day before yesterday for this interview. I am not nervous right now. But I am sure that five minutes prior to the interview I will start getting nervous. But today I am going to give this interview with my head up high. Whatever the results would be. Whether I get the job or not, that we will see later.