RUN AWAY || H.S

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝟗𝟐*

Alana's POV.

"Alana, I want you to be honest with me, okay?" she asked, her gaze unnerving.

"Okay"

"Did you kill Dominic?"

"No"

"I will ask you again, Alana, please be truthful to me. You know whatever we talk about is confidential and I am not here to judge you ... Did you kill your ex-husband?"

I stared at her, my breathing labored "No, I did not" I don't know why she keeps asking me this.

"But, you started the fire?"

"Yes"

"You hated him?"

"Yes. Very much so"

"You wanted him dead"

"Yes"

"You started that fire with the intention of killing him?"

"Yes"

"And you killed him"

"No" I shook my head at Mrs. Miller, aka my therapist, "Yes, I wanted him dead but I am not a monster like him"

"Look, Alana, if I would be in your place, I would kill that bastard too, and honestly, I wouldn't blame you if you did let him die in that fire. But, now you have to be honest with yourself and me" she said with a firm yet very calm tone.

"That's the thing, I wanted to kill him but I helped him out just because I couldn't bear the thought of being a monster and kill my problems. I couldn't hurt a fly let alone a human and on top of that I left a mess over here. With Harry. Everything was a mess. I didn't get a chance to clean my mess before I had to go away and I can't... I couldn't do that to Harry. Hev was already being so... so understanding towards my situation, my so-called marriage, he was still there on the end waiting for me, I couldn't bear the thought he had to dear with a fucking murderer. I couldn't hurt him more than I already did"

I took a deep breath before declaring the truth "I did not freaking kill Dominic Ahuja and that's the truth"

She kept looking at me as if she is deciding whether to believe me or not, I have no reasons to lie.

After a while, she nodded her head "Okay. And do you know who could have done that?"

I shrugged not even caring about the topic "Don't know, don't care. Anyone could have done that to him. He was a bastard and a lot of people hated him enough to kill him"

"And how do you feel about this?"

"I don't know. I don't feel any different since Harry has been in my life. Yes, I am relieved I don't have to look over my shoulder thinking someone is out there to hurt me but other than that nothing. Dominic was in my life for a long time, he played an important part in my life but he was just a freaking nightmare, he has no value, no importance in my life"

She nodded her head "Hmm and wh-" I interrupted her "Can we please not talk about him anymore, please? I am not avoiding the topic, its just I don't want to right now"

I would talk about anything, anyway, now I don't have a problem talking about my problems and my past but I don't have Harry to come too who will try to lift my mood up or distract me and I don't want to cry myself and I know he will be super upset knowing he wasn't there for me.

"Alright... Let's talk about your sleeping habits" I groaned loudly.

This is another topic I hate "I hate you for making me do this" I muttered.

"Hey, I didn't make you do anything. It's just advice that will help you."

Melissa has advised me to sleep separately from Harry as in different beds, different rooms.