hoodies - luke brooks

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luke

Everyday I walk by her.The way she walk talks laughs makes me want to be by her everyday and all the time but I can't.She probably wouldn't even want to talk or even be my me.Ever since I left her.The choice I made by leaving her I regretted it almost every single day.

I was a coward and I admit that.I watch her get bullied by the popular or my "friends" everyday in school.But I'm too much of a llittle bitch to say anything.Beau,Jai,Daniel and James know what happened to Elle.So they keep their mouth close when we see her.We know she gets bullied yet we don't sat anything.Yet all they do is call her a freak which isn't true.

Curiosity comes to me when all I see her wearing is long sleeves or hoodies.I just hope it isn't what I think it is.Seeing her self harm or even cut herself makes me worried or cry.Even the thought of it just because of me.Maybe she stopped and I wouldn't have to worry.

She's everything I need and more.Not being by her makes me feel secluded shes the only thing that matters to me. Besides my family.She's my world but only of she knew.I need her to be by me.I just maybe need to talk to her.Make everything better to make her feel wanted.

Thinking back to the day we first met.We were in first grade we were at the playground and I saw her there on the swing smiling.Whispering random things and just taking in the sunny Melbourne air.The clouds were shinning and all I could focus on was her.The way her long blonde hair blew in the wind.Swinging her legs back and forward on the swing.

From that day I know I had my first childhood crush on someone and it was her she was just beautiful.I took the courage and finally decided to go and talk to her.Walking closer and closer to her her blue eyes looked towards to me and smiled,then at the moment I swear my heart melted.Her smile was perfect overall she was perfect.She was the definition of perfect.

She walked up to me and smiled "Hi my names Elle,whats your name?" She said happily.

"My names Luke." I said and returned the exact same smile.

From that day on we became the best of friends.We were like your typical middle school teenagers we flirted here and there.Her family and myself was happy.Everything was perfect.Although perfect didn't last long in her life.

Seeing her sad and crumble made my hear ache.She came crying to me saying her dad died.Her mom got drunk almost very night and brought home a different guy home almost each night.I remember seeing her depressed and sad.She became distant from everyone and everything.She used to come to school with bruises all over her body and wouldn't talk a single word to me.

No one knew what was going on.Then she began cutting I caught her right before she pressed the blade onto her skin.

Flashback to 7th grade

I walked to Elle's house after school because I couldn't deal with the thought of us being far away from each other.Us becoming distant was enough to drive me insane.I knocked on her door and no one answered.I figured she should still be at home because her penny board was outside.

I walked into her house and it smelled like strong alcohol and sex.I walked up the stairs to her room.You may wonder how do I know where her room is at its because I used to have dinner with her family.I walked into her room and saw something that maybe my eyes wide.

I ran towards her and quickly removed the blade out of her hand.She looked at me with wide eyes and then started to cry.

"I'm soo soo sorry Luke I'm sorry."She cried onto my shirt.I rubbed her back soothingly and told her everything is going to be okay.Her chest heaving up and down as she cried and struggled to regain her breath.She finally slowed down her breathing and looked up at me.

"Luke." She said in a whispered tone.Her voice croaked as she said my name. "I need you to promise me something." Her voice croaking as the words rolled off her tongue.I slowly nodded my head. Promise me that you will always be by my side no matter what." She hiccuped almost like she was about to cry or she was afraid of my answer.

"I promise." I said smiling down at her.She tried to smile. "But." I said pausing "You need to promise me that you will never ever out that blade against your skin ever again.

"I promise." She said in a low voice.I smiled down looking at her.

Flashback Ends.

Little did we know that the promises we both made weren't true.I broke my promise.I didn't stay by her side when she needed me the most.I drifted away from her when we were in 9th grade towards the end of the school year.I was too busy dealing with my own problems which weren't really problems to begin with.Mainly in 9th grade we started doing YouTube videos.We still talked but never face to face.Mainly through text messages.Soon that all ended when we were in 11th grade.We became more well know and then started to have fans.Then everyone wanted to become our friends.And guess what we did we became great friends with them that..

I forgot about the one girl that means the most to me Elle.

She had her two friends but I can tell she didn't fully trust them like she trusted me.Towards 11th grade also she started to wear sweaters and long sleeved clothes.Almost anything that didn't show her body.I thought maybe she was just going through a phase the last thing on my mind was the promise until now.

I may have broke my promise but I hope she didn't break her's.Then the though of her cutting because I broke mine broke my heart but I couldn't deal with the thought of her doing that so I hoped..

She kept her's.