hoodies - luke brooks

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elle

I woke up to the sound of my mother yelling at another man.It's nothing new I'm used to it.Ever since my dad died my mom has been drinking and sleeping with men each day and night.She's not the same mom who I grew to and loved.I still love her but the things she does or do toward me is horrible.No mother should treat her daughter like this.Sometimes I wish that I could escape and go to Nether land like Peter Pan.Too bad that could never happen.Or maybe I could find my own Peter Pan that will fly me away to Nether land.

I went into the bathroom to take a shower because I felt all sticky and gross I really don't know why.I stepped out and wrapped the towel around my small petite body.I took a long look in the mirror and saw this ugly girl with bags under her eyes and scars all around her body.It's not the same girl it's more hideous girl.I went and walked into my room quietly and walked into my wardrobe.I picked out a black Nike hoodie with the white check mark on the side and then some plain black leggings and to finish it off some black vans.Then looking at myself and my wardrobe I had a lot of clothes that are black I thought to myself.

I quietly walked downstairs and tried not to make a noise or to get noticed by my mother sometimes I don't even want to think of her as that or even label her as a mom.Once I was down the stairs I saw her on the sofa wig a bottle of vodka in her hand.Heavily sighing I walked into the kitchen to have breakfast and or something to eat. I had went to the fruit bowl and got a apple and a granola bar and eat that.When I saw it was almost time it go I went upstairs and grabbed my bag and got my car keys.I went into my car which was nothing special but I did work my butt of to save for this car which was a 2014 Nissan Altima and it was in black.I have a lot of things black,I silently laughed to myself at the thought.

Once I was at school I walked into the building and met up with my only friends.Yes that's friends with an "s".Their names are Sarah and Erin.We are so close and been friends since we were in diapers.Our parents were close and all but since my dad does my mom haven't even talked to them.They don't even know what my mom pus me through but it's better that way.I plan on moving out because I have a part time job and money to move into an apartment.I don't plan on going to college and all but I might it just depends.

I walked up to Sarah and Erin and we did our best friend handshake.After that we walked down the hallway and walked into our homeroom class.Which was the only class we had together.The bell had rang and the students pulled into the classroom trying to get a good seat because we didn't have assigned seats .We took our seats in the back of the class not wanting to be bothered and had our own little conversation well they did I just kind of zoned out and was in my own little dream world.

Then the whole class room stopped talking when he walked in.By he I mean Luke Brooks.Here's a little background history Luke and I used to be best Friends and we used to do everything together.That was until he became famous and he stopped talking ton me.It seems really selfish but it really dosen't matter because I have my other friends and they are always here to support me.The thing that he dosen't know is that I wish we would still be best friends.Maybe he could of been the one that stopped me from cutting and being depressed.He really dosen't acknowledge me and my presence.I really do miss our friendship.He was the only person that I could trust and would want to be by.I did know his other brother and his twin Beau and Jai.We used ti talk but we weren't that close but we were still friends.

If only he could open his eyes and realize or anyone that I'm not the same person and I need someone to make me feel wanted and needed in this world.Or else the only thing that makes me happy is my blade sliding on my wrist or the abuse that my mother causes me.It also made me realize that no one loves me or want me in their life it's like I'm invisible the smile that I wear on my face is fake and when I say fake I mean it.

When my dad died I became depressed and cried in my room and locked myself in there.I had no one to call or talk to Luke was the only person that I wanted but he wasn't there for me when I cried or when I needed his guidance.Don't get me wrong Sarah and Erin are my best friends but I don't trust them not as much as Luke.