ferris wheel | izana kurokawa ✓

4.

beast beneath his wings

Being Izana's girlfriend made your legs turn to jelly.

Oh right, you were now Izana's girlfriend. It went so quick to the point you couldn't even process it.

After that one damned kiss, Izana looked at you with those soft eyes. He asked you to be his, and there was no way you could've said no.

"We can paint this cruel world with colors of our own, so would you like to be mine?"

"Yes."

Hesitation was nowhere to be found, and with that, you shared another kiss.

It has already been a few days after that day, the day you were called his. It was a decision you never regretted, not even a little bit.

You were currently in your car after dropping off Izana, it was already your daily routine to see each other behind the mall and do whatever ridiculous thing you could think of.

Whether it be fighting gangs then slow dancing in front of their unconscious bodies, or stealing kids' candies from the playground. Name it, you did it.

Life with Izana was colorful, everything dull suddenly seemed vibrant whenever he was around.

What you didn't know, was the fact everything will someday turn black and white.

-

"I wonder where he is." you scanned the back of the mall for the thirtieth time that day, it was yours and Izana's meeting spot.

But that day, he was no where to be found.

You called him way too many times, it almost seemed like you were obsessed.

It wasn't even a Sunday, it was Friday. So of course he knew you were gonna be there.

And if he knew you were gonna be there, he should also be there.

Right?

Well of course not, he wasn't obligated to always be there, but you would've appreciated a heads up so you wouldn't have gotten ready over nothing.

You got ready? Of course you did, it was your one week anniversary.

One week wasn't as important as one month, so you wouldn't be mad if Izana didn't celebrate or if Izana forgot. You just wanted to surprise him with an extra special day.

A special day where you redid everything you did for a week, but you compress it into a day.

But I guess you were gonna spend doing the special day by yourself, since it seemed like Izana wasn't arriving.

You drove around the city, it gave you a sense of familiarity as you drove at the street to your beloved's house.

Oh right, the first thing you did when you first met each other was give him a ride home.

Then you noticed the McDonalds where you told Izana to fake propose to you for some cake, how lovely.

Chuckling at the memory, you wished Izana would actually propose to you one day.

And then you noticed a couple rain drops on your wind shield. Oh, the day where you both danced in the rain. You wished you could go back in time and kiss him in the process.

But no need for that, you can just ask him another time.

Especially since he was your boyfriend.

Since it wasn't raining that much, you decided to take a walk after you parked your car.

As you walked, you went to the side of the street where there'd normally be gossip, not that you were interested, but it was the way your heart told you to go to.

The whispers were more than usual, you figured there was another scandal and the tea was boiling this time.

You were about to walk away from that area, until you heard a familiar name.

"Hey, I'm sure you know about the Izana Kurokawa cheating thing." one whispered,

This grabbed your curiosity, so you stopped to listen. The mention of cheating made your heart drop, but you wanted answers.

"Yeah, duh. What's up?"

"Well you know the girl he's been meeting behind the mall?" oh, this was you.

You figured the person was gonna reveal who he'd been cheating on you with, since you were the girlfriend.

But the next words she said was something you never expected to hear.

"She's long gone now probably, Izana's been trying to get back together with Nakamura."

Oh.

That was how it was.

You weren't being cheated on, you were the one who he was cheating with.

Suddenly, all the thoughts of ever dancing in the rain with him again burned into crisps after being struck by the loud thunder.

And the rain that was mere turned into a rain storm.

That kissed you shared in your car, you thought no word in the dictionary could ever describe what it was.

But now, you found the perfect word to describe it.

It was godforsaken.