Funhouse -A Skylox Fanfic-

Chapter 12 "A Cry for Help"

And yes I did steal the title from Steven Universe but hey, it went well with all the angst in this chapter! Oh! Hey I updated too! Huh, that's a miracle. Whelp have fun reading this shit. If you have questions, leave them in the comments! And I understand if this one is confusing, because I wrote it at 5am. Ok now I'm done.

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Sky carefully flipped my writs over, expecting to see the worst. Idiot. My wrist, is clean. It has been in a long long time. I would never be stupid enough to do that, leaving my scars out in the open. There was nothing on my wrists. Sky stared in disbalief as i growled and took my hand back.

"I told you, I've stopped." I said in defiance to his persisting. "Stop worrying about me, alright? Trust me more often, ok?"

Sky laughed uneasily "Uh. Dude, God... Sorry I just worry you know-"

"Yes, I know Sky, and I love you for that but at the moment, I would like to go to bed." I said and covered myself with the bed sheets again.

"But Ty. It's only 10.Sky playfully prodded the lump of blankets he was sure was my head.

"10 is fucking late you ass!" I whined and curled up into a ball. Sky sighed and I felt the mattress concave under his weight as he lay down beside me.

"Dude. What the fuck are you doing."

Sky crawled over to me and put his lips to my ear. I shivered and faced him, looking into his glasses. Those fucking glasses never went off his face. Sky took my hand into his and leaned closer to me. I could feel his breath on my face. He smelled like... mint and coffee. My heart raced. My heart soared. My heart felt like it was doing a number of complex dances, fluttering in my chest. But it literally began to beat hard. 

"No homo." Sky whispered and started to laugh. I groaned and pushed him away from me.

"Dude. What the FUCK." I said, a bit bitterly. Sky laughed and lay on his back, his limbs spread out across the small space of my bed. 

"Trying to lighten the mood." Sky said and put his arm under me. "Did it work?" He said laughing and turning the light next to us off with a click.

"Fuck you." I laughed and relished in the touch of his skin. "I'm guessing I did!" He said, taking his glasses off with a delicate crinkle and tossing them somewhere on the floor. I lay there, feeling slightly cheated. Why would he do that? I don't want to deal with this right now. I can't...

"Hey, Ty... You still awake?" Sky asked. "I can't fall asleep." 

I nodded, the fabric swishing with the movement. "I'm cold." Sky said and slid over to me, cuddling up to me. 

"Is this ok, Ty?" I nodded again, loving the feeling of his arms wrapped around me. For the first time, I really felt comfortable in my own skin, with Sky here to hold me together now. I groaned internally. This is starting to turn out like one of those really bad fanfictions on wattpad. I wiggled into a more comfortable position and turned toward Sky.

"Hey,Sky... I'm... sorry." I whispered into the seemingly endless night.  Sky shifted closer toward me, and sighed. But it didn't sound like he was concerned or doubtful. He sounded comfortable. At that moment i could feel my heart race and my insides twist and my face heat up; I felt... normal. Well, about as normal you could be in my... situation. I sighed too and smiled. I closed my  heavy eyes. And fell asleep peacefully.

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I stood in my shower, scolding hot water cascading down my back. I yelled in pain, turning the water to the coldest setting. My eyes were wide open in confusion and millions of questions raced around in my mind. My breathing quickened and became forced gasps of air. How did I get here.  My chest felt like it was going to explode. Fucking think Ty, you idiot. What the FUCK is wrong with me?! I-i just need to retrace my steps... What did I do first? I woke up...

I woke up at sunrise, groggy and way too hot. Sky was still in my bed, snoring a bit in his sleep. I slipped out of the bed and trudged off to the bathroom, the tiles beneath my feet felt refreshing. I turned the tap water on... and got into the... water.

I stood in my shower. Wondering what happened. I was numb and yet choking back tears of terror. My entire body shook, my legs felt like fucking noodles. I'll just get back to bed and... forget this shit had ever happened. I laughed at the thought, it should be easy enough to forget. My wrist twitched and I reached out for a shaving razor.

I want to fucking do it. So fucking bad. But... I'm not doing it. For Sky.

I shook my head and put it back in its place. I don't know why we even have that we don't shave. I smiled wearily and got out of the shower. It would've been a bad idea to stay in there for much longer. After rubbing my hair dry with a towel I got dressed and went back to the bed, where Sky was still sleeping. He looked so forlorn.

I slid in between the warm sheets and cuddled next to him, the warmth of his body welcoming me back.

"Mmmmm Ty..." Sky's voice sounded gravely and muffled.

"Oh, uh..." my voice was hoarse, like if I were screaming all night. "Yeah?"

"Back to bed you dork. It's too early to do anything..."

I nodded and Sky's arms wrapped around me in a warm embrace.

"Is this ok?" He said in a hushed whisper.

"Yeah." I replied, my voice faltering. "Thank you."

I was back together in his arms, but yet I still felt alone. The feeling of waking up and being alone and scared, still haunted my memories. My heart was still pounding in my chest, wanting to break free. And I felt hot salty tears form in my clouded eyes.

By now, the sun had just risen and was now peaking into our room as if to try and greet us. My tears fell down my miserable eyes and plopped right onto my pillow and my chest shook with the force of my cries. Sky hugged me tighter as more and more tears accumulated onto the pillow.

"It's ok." He shushed and reassured me. I didn't feel like it was ok. It was like my emotions weren't valid. There are so many less fortunate people in the world... But I'm here sobbing and sacred.

"Ty, it's ok..."Sky pecked the back of my head. But I just couldn't get over myself, I felt so helpless and needy. I was so weak .

"God I'm so sorry Sky."