an exasperated sigh slips from robin's lips as they roll over in their king-size bed. the dread head rubs their eyes in hopes of easing the dryness but unfortunately, it doesn't work. they so desperately wished they could shake the uneasy feeling racking their body, causing their hands to shake and stomach to turn. their body was so anxiety-ridden they couldn't even relax and drift into the bliss known as sleep.
robin knew they shouldn't have been so nervous about the first day of their senior year but truthfully they couldn't help it. every year when school starts back up they feel so anxious. being in an environment every day where people constantly send them nasty looks or purposely misgender them makes robin so upset but at least this is the last year they have to deal with it.
and who knows? maybe this year might be a little bit enjoyable since they're actually going to school with a friend this time. robin slips their bottom lip between their teeth, reaching for their phone. their mind is on jay, contemplating calling the male just to hear his voice since it seems to put them at ease but, calling at a time like this would be inconsiderate. jay had most likely fallen into a deep sleep already and probably didn't want to be awoken by the likes of robin.
they stare at the number for a while, twiddling their thumbs as they ponder pressing dial. before robin even realizes it, their phone slips from their hands, falling flat on their face. "ouch!" robin murmurs frowning, picking up the phone. "robin?" the dread heads heart skips a beat when they hear jays smooth, deep voice. "i'm sorry. i didn't mean to call you." robin says quickly, panicking internally.
"you good. what're you doing up? y'know we have school in like four hours." jay says, amused that his friend was still awake. "why are you up jay?" robin retorts in a taunting tone, making the male laugh even more. "can't sleep." jay murmurs. robin hums in response, a comfortable silence falling over the two.
"you nervous?" jay asks suddenly, the question almost catches robin off guard. "not really.." robin mumbles quietly, but jay already knows his friend is lying. "what're you nervous about robin?" jay asks quietly. robin falls silent for a moment, a small blush creeping up on their cheeks. how did he know so easily? "i'm just sick of it y'know? being misgendered, called by my other name, given weird looks...it's just exhausting. all of it starts to take a toll on me after a while. i always get anxious before going back." they admit quietly, tears stinging the corners of their eyes.
"i get that. it'll get better though. don't let them get under your skin." jay responds quietly. "and like i said, if they can't treat you with respect fuck them." robin lets out a small laugh at the males words, the anxious feeling in their gut slowly starting to dissipate. "thanks. you're a really nice person jay." they say, a smile plastered on their face.
