Just a little longer // Ryuryeong

Chapter 14: Don't try to win me

I woke up with the worst headache l sat up and noticed I was in a familiar bed that wasn't my own. I connected two and two together and figured I was at her house.

"You're awake, how are you feeling?" The one voice said that I desperately wanted to ignore.

"These are not my clothes, did you change me??" I ignored her question and asked my own.

"You looked uncomfortable in the clothes you were wearing and stop acting like I never saw you naked." She snared at me making me want to punch her.

"I would've done just fine by myself, I don't need to be taken care of especially not by you." I stood up and looked for my own clothes.

"My parents are going to kill me for being so late." I sighed as I changed back into my clothes while she looked away.

"I already texted them about what happened."

"Stop pretending that you care Ryujin, you don't. Why are you even doing this for me?? Shouldn't you be with your little girlfriend??" There were tears forming in my eyes as I got all of my stuff and tried to leave. 

"She went back to Japan.."

"So now that she isn't around you start acting all nice again?? That's not how it works. Just fuck off and leave me alone when we're off camera." That was the last thing I said before leaving her house and stepping on the subway back home.

All these emotions were so difficult to progress and understand, it drove me crazy.

When I arrived back home I instantly went to my room and locked myself in.

I cried myself to sleep until I couldn't feel a single thing anymore. She can't hurt my feelings if I don't feel them right?

She's been hurting me for too long now, I'll just stop caring just for the sake of my heart.

Think with your head Chaerry, not your heart. It'll only hurt you more.

I woke up to my alarm, I really didn't want to go to the company but I had to.

I packed my bag for school and went downstairs, god, now I had to face them all at once.

I warmed up some leftovers they ate and tried to make myself invisible.

"Chaeryeong." Fuck, I got caught, I'm dead.

"Hm?"

"Why didn't you tell us you were sick?" My mom scolded me. I mean I couldn't blame.

"I didn't even notice myself so I couldn't tell someone I was sick." I was too tired to put up with this bullshit right now.

"You're not going to the company." My dad said making me let go of all the things I was holding.

"Why not?? I have to practice I'm debuting soon." I picked up the things I dropped and cleaned it.

"Ryujin said you have a high fever."

"Well fuck Ryujin, she doesn't get a say in my life. I'm going to the company." I felt guilty for snapping at them like that but on the other hand didn't, they pissed me off like that.

I'm so fucking done with all of this.