Just a little longer // Ryuryeong

Chapter 18: Why did I give in?

Ryujin left my room as I stayed. I was so frustrated tears started to roll down my cheeks.

"7 fucking years." I mumbled under my breath. Am I going to be this hurt for 7 years??

I heard a knock on the door and after some debating I let the person come it to see Ryujin's face once again.

"Didn't I tell you to get out?" I said drying my tears.

"We never talked properly about what happened that day." She said sitting down on the ground to face me.

"I don't want to talk, I want you to get out." I lifted my legs to my chest and put my arms around them.

"Chaeryeong... Please." She looked at me in a way I couldn't resist. I sighed and agreed to talk.

"Talk." I said with widened eyes. Not from surprise but from anger, I hated it that I still was so weak for her.

"I was wrong..." "you sure were" I cut her off.

"Chaeryeong, please, just listen." I took a deep breath and let her continue her bullshit.

"I wanted to apologize for my actions. What I did was terrible. None of my actions were because of you, it's all on me. You don't deserve to be this hurt and I'll do anything to see your smile once again. I'm not looking for forgiveness, I want us to be at peace."

I wanted to cry at her words and tell her everything was alright and that I wanted her back but my head wouldn't allow it. My head didn't want my heart to be hurt like that again.

"There is no "us", "us" came to an end months ago. I appreciate your apology but isn't that a little too late now? You lost me, you lost my heart." I used every single bit of self control I had left to say this.

"Then let me regain your heart. I want to prove to you that I still love you." I was infuriated by what she said. If she loved me she wouldn't have done that to me.

"You can try all you want but how do I know you won't fool me again?" I looked down to where she was sitting and met her eyes.

"Close your eyes."

"Why?"

"Just do it Chaeryeong."

I closed my eyes nervous to what she was about to do. I could feel my heartbeat increase.

My own thoughts were deafening for all the other sounds and voices in the dorm.

Her hand cupped my cheek and I felt a familiar pair of lips greet mine. She pulled away and the only thing I wanted was to pull her back in.

"Do you believe me now?" She said as I opened my eyes to face her.

"I don't think i'm ready to forgive you now or any time soon. I do accept this challenge. You can try to make me fall in love with you again but don't expect anything out of it." I mentally punched myself for being so weak, get your shit together Chaeryeong.

Ryujin pecked my lips quickly making me redden a bit.

"Thank you, for real." She smiled as she left the room.

What am I getting myself into?