I'm here. (Y/n x Sakusa)

Chapter 18: What the

When we got home she headed straight to her room and packed her things.

I would want y/n to spend her days with me, especially when she's like this. I envy Akashi... He's the only one who can make her feel okay. No one else.

But still, I'll try to be the one who'll make her feel alright now, no one else can make her feel ok this time. No one but me.

Suddenly an idea popped in my head.

"HEY Y/N I MEAN AMIE COME HERE" - me

I was still getting used to our nickname

"I'M PACKING, YOU COME HERE!" - y/n

"Gosh" I sighed.

I came to her room and her art materials was a mess.

"Wow, and you'd want me to come here? Really?" - me

Well some might say, why do you act like that when she was just in a breakdown?
Well she prefers me to be like this, she doesn't want people to pity her.

"Shut up, what do you want??" - her

"Well what do you think if we stay there until Wednesday?" - me

"Sakusa don't fuck with me, we're going on a beach. Did you hear me? A beach. Beach." - her

"What's with your mood? Ugh well it's not a problem for me, I mean we're not going to swim. If you want to then go by yourself. I can manage and I know you like the beach, let's relax there" - me

She sighed "Sorry, well I can only say yes to your recommendation if you'd really be happy there, not because I'm feeling all these emotions doesn't mean that the world revolves around me." - her

"I'll be happy if you're happy Amie." - me

"I'm not satisfied with your answer. It's not always gonna be me ami. I mean you've done so much for me and even going to the beach is a huge decision. Then you're going to recommend to stay there until Wednesday? I don't want you to sacrifice things for me okay? I don't want you to have a panic attack suddenly. Don't give so much love and so much care for me, these days you don't even have time for yourself. I know that all of us face problems, and sadly it just came back to me now. I don't even know the problems you're dealing with right now because it's always me these days.  " She said with a lovely but sad tone.

"What's with this sudden attitude? First you get moody with me then suddenly you're gonna say those things? I mean don't get me wrong, you said nothing wrong but who am I if I don't take care of you? What are we if I don't stay by your side? Please please please, if you suddenly thought that you're being a burden right now. Fucking move it away.
I'm here.
I will always be here. And of course you're the one being taken care of. You're the one who's mentally damaged right now. We'll face things together always and forever. Remember, if the darkness pulls you, i will be the light that will take u back from that darkness." - me

As I said those words she began sobbing.
When I was finally done she gave me a big hug. A hug that said the words I said was true. That she thought she was a burden to me. I think that's why she asked me a while ago why I do these things for her. PSH like she wouldn't do these things for me.

"Ami, thank you" she said while sobbing
"Thank you for always being there, thank you for being my light, thank you because you are my bestfriend. I am so fucking blessed that I have you as my bestfriend. I will always be by your side too." - her

She then freed herself from the hug.

"We're gonna go to the beach until Wednesday, no complaints." - me

She looked at me. She's starting to tear up again.

She came closer and then suddenly
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She kissed my cheek.

What the fuck?

What the actual fuck?

What the actual actual fuck?