Tonight the stars are shining brighter,
is that you grandpa?
The times where I feel overwhelmed with fear,
are you there even with this flaw?
The flaw where I can't see or hear you,
but maybe if I think this way the cold in my heart will thaw.
They say that grief comes in stages,
oh how I wish that were true.
For times would be predictable,
and the pain would be over and through.
But I feel all stages at once sometimes,
and I know grandma feels it too.
The weight of the world is oh so heavy,
just like my heart when nights and days become chaotic and menacing.
And the cries that I cry alone
leave my body trembling.
The memories you leave with me are so bitter sweet,
the way you took care of me,
the way you loved me,
and the way you guided me,
they all stay in my brain,
never to leave,
always on repeat.
Oh the stars, how I wish you were here with me.
Oh the stars, how I want to hear you speak.
Oh the stars, how I miss your smile.
Oh the stars, how I wished you stayed for a little while.
