Captured Heart (Sunki CDL 01)

01.

"Sam, where the hell are you?"

"I'm coming!" I shouted from my room. I went out to my room and sighed as I saw my mom fixing my baggages and stuffs for my trip.

She's really serious about sending me to our province. Made me want to run and never come back para di niya ako mapapunta doon.

I sat in front of the table, in front of her and made a face for her to know that I'm not loving this idea, everything.

"Ma, ayoko-"

"Don't start, Dave Samuel." She said. Buong pangalan pa.

Tinignan ko si dad na nagkakape sa sala to ask for help but he just shook his head our of disappointment. I didn't know na ang pagtakas ko last night ang magiging reason para maputol ang konting pasensya nila. I made a mistake, yes. But I already said sorry, and I'm really really sorry about what happened, I meant it!

"You know why we're doing this, right?" My mom said.

"Yeah, to punish me of course, what else?"

"Sam, when will you learn? We're doing this for you. You're not listening to us, baka sakaling kay mama makinig ka."

And that made me shocked, as in shocked. What the freak? I thought I'll book a hotel na pagsstayan ko? Or apartment? Bakit kay lola? My life is in danger please!

"What?! No. No. Hindi kay lola, I'll book a hotel or I'll find an apartment, Ma. Huwag kay lola please, I already said sorry, why are you doing this to me?" I said.

My lola is very very strict, when I said strict, as in strikta talaga, feeling ko tignan niya lang ako, manginginig na ako sa takot. No!

"You don't listen to us. Mama will do everything para mapasunod ka, at this point, hindi na namin alam ng mom mo ang gagawin namin sa'yo. I'm very very disappointed sa ginawa mo, Sam. You made us worried. Cutting classes is one thing but going out late at night when you're supposed to be studying or sleeping is I don't know... You never listen-"

"But dad, please-"

"You'll leave tomorrow morning, and that's final." He said before walking out from our sala. I really made him disappointed.

Si dad ung kakampi ko sa lahat, and watching him turn his back at me hurts me a lot. I made him really disappointed, huh?

Napabuntong hininga nalang si mama habang inaayos ang mga gamit ko. Tinawag niya ako para tumulong but I just went to my room and locked myself. I'm disappointed to myself too. I really made a bad decision to go out knowing I'll make them worry. Pero magbabago na ako, bakit kailangan ko pang umalis? How about my studies? Fuck, it's summer nga pala. What about my friends? Oh right, I don't have any permanent acquaintance anyway.

"What a great life." I whispered.

Ever since I was little, I never really made friends, I had one when I was nine, but he moved to Canada with his family so I never saw him again.

I have everything, money, food, gadgets, clothes, shoes, supportive family - well, cut that, they don't support me na gusto ko magstay so wag muna natin sila isama. I have everything, like everything but it seems like it's not enough, I have this one thing I really wanted but can't figure it out, and that sucks as hell.

Alam mo ung may gustong-gusto kang bagay pero hindi mo malaman kung ano? Kaya siguro ako naging ganito. Or whatever, basta. I'll find it out soon, and I'll do everything para makuha ko 'yon.