Feelings

First

I'm not anyone's first choice

And that's what really kills me inside

My friends would choose one of their closer friends

My mom would choose my dad

My dad would choose my mom

My sister would choose her boyfriend

My brother would choose his daughter

And who would I choose?

My crush

But she'd never choose me first

She'd only ever think of me as a friend

And I'd never be her first choice of a friend

So I'm basically uncared for

And no one notices

Because they would all like to think that they would choose me first

But they're just saying that so that they don't feel guilt

So they don't feel as though they've betrayed me

So that they don't feel bad

When, in fact, they haven't done anything wrong

This doesn't phase me

I'm used to being ignored my whole life

When I felt lonely when my whole family paid loads of attention to my niece

My nieces mother was the one to notice

Not my own family

And that's just wrong

But I'm used to it

And everyone who "cares" about me hates that I am

But I guess it's the sad, sad truth