Feelings

I Guess Im Fine

Last week

I found out the truth

That you "didn't feel the same"

I was expecting this,

Knowing that I found that you were the most

Amazing

Hilarious

Perfect

Person I've ever met

I loved you

I'd do anything for you

But I doubt you'd do the same

I saw you stare at me during lunch

My friend said you were saying some weird stuff about me

I saw you whisper to your friends

And then the three of you glanced at me

I never

In a million years

Would've thought that you'd treat me like

I cleared the air between us the day I found out

I thought things might be okay after I did so

But that's when all the shit happened

And I was strong

For that one week

But now, I'm breaking down

I'm back to cutting

And I hate myself even more than I ever have

And I want to die like I once did

All those feelings have returned

And I can't help it

You're already killing me gently, why not just get it over with

Hand me the pills and the water, I'll be out like a light

And you'll never have to deal with me again