I think I got it now.
This is the ending.
My choice is to... live or die.
The hardest option is being alive.
I'm so stupid.
He did both the easy thing and the hard thing. It's easier for him to die but it's hard for him to stare at me agonise myself forevermore whilst he cannot move, cannot save me. He dedicated himself to me. Hoped I can be happy without him.
He's egoistic on some level. Except for the fact that if I would die I wouldn't have to watch him. So actually I'm egoistic in every single possible way.
It's not his fault. I should just be happy.
That means I'll choose the easy option. I choose to save him. Make him live forever while I get my own freedom.
