#54 And Me

Just Take the Loss

It's 11:50 am, I have ten minutes to pull myself together for my shift at the Diner. Trying to push today away, and the feeling of just losing my best friend, I dry my eyes. I hear a car pulling up next to me, I know it's not Kyler's truck, but a small part of me is hopeful.

Looking over I see it's Adam, he's rolling down the window so I stop walking turning to face him. My head hanging down so he doesn't see that I've been crying, like ugly crying. Hard.

"Hey, I'm headed back to the Diner, want a lift," he asks. I just nod my head yes, and walk to his door. Climbing in, I make sure not to make any eye contact, but I feel him staring at me.

His voice is low, full of concern, "What happened, why are you crying?"

I sigh, controlling my emotions, "Kyler and I had a fight. Best friend stuff." There short and sweet, but honestly it wasn't best friends stuff. I told Kyler how I felt, I let him touch me, and I even gave myself to him. For what, to be another conquest?

Congratulations, you are number 16 of Kyler's lovers.  Want a jersey of your own? My subconscious screams at me.

Adam doesn't say anything, he just gives me a warm smile, and starts driving. We get to the Diner, I sit in his car to toss on some make up, and to throw my still wet hair into a messy bun. I grab my things, climbing out of his car I make sure to press the lock button.

I walk in with my fake smile hanging off my lips. I put my things up and head to the office to find Adam.

"Hey boss man, just wondering what tables you were wanting me to work tonight?" I ask in my very fake, happy voice.

Adam is doing some paperwork, so he doesn't lift his head to look at me, "Just one through four tonight. Side work is basically done since we closed so early last night. We weren't that busy today as well."

I say,"You got it boss." Turning on my heel, I leave the office.

Tonight is slow for a Tuesday, and it's only 7:30 pm. In the last hour we have had two people come in and they sat in Lilly's section.

Adam comes around the corner, walking over to me at the drink station. He looks nervous, like he did last night when he asked me out. Shoot, I texted him drunk, saying yes I would. Double shoot when I see Emma walking in with.. Fucking Kyler.

"So, about last night, you texting me, how about we leave a little early and I take you on that date? School starts tomorrow for you, so I won't have you out too late.", Adam asks me while my eyes are fixed on Emma.

I turn to face him to speak, but Lilly comes up to tell me that I have people in my section now. I know who is there, and I don't think I can face him right now. Especially with her.

"Just take the tables' order and come find me," Adam says, turning and walking away.

Composure is all I need, that and a fake smile. I walk over, pin and my order pad in hand.

Let's get this over with, #16, my subconscious is a really biotch sometimes.

"Hello, Emma a strawberry milkshake? And for you, SIR," I ask.

Emma laughs," Yes the milkshake, and you know Kyler's order stalker."

I quickly write it down, looking at Kyler who is most definitely avoiding eye contact with me.

My voice is icy when I speak,"Got it, it will be out shortly." Walking away. I toss the cook the paper with the order. Over my dead body am I making his plate right now. I go over to the drink station to make Emma's dang milkshake. I feel like I want to spit in Emma's shake I'm so pissed. I refrained, but gosh I wanted too.