𝕊𝕖𝕔𝕣𝕖𝕥 𝕒𝕞𝕠𝕦𝕣

Farewell to Her.

Aries saint Wilson
Chicago,IL
January 7

Hearing saint phone ring for the fifth time he finally reached over grabbing it off the nightstand.
Feeling saint move his head from the crook of my neck "hello,my mama? You say she where? She gone" I heard his voice crack. He got up.

I open my eyes to see saint running his hands over his face pacing the room

"What's wrong wooda" I sit up

Then he punched a hole in the wall continuously punching the wall. Making me jump back in shock cause what the actual fuck.

"Saint, saint baby"

He sat down on the end of the bed looking at the wall making me crawl across the bed

Baby... he ain't say nothing so I got off the bed squatting down in front on him to see he was crying
I stood up and hugged him letting him cry in my chest

"She gon Ariès my mama gone...why she leave me?Both my people gone now, ian get to say goodbye to my mother " he told me in a whisper

"Ian gon tell you it's going to be okay wooda cause I don't know but I know I got you forever Ian going nowhere baby" I told him rubbing the back of his neck

2weeks later

With saint to my left and native and mena to my right sitting in the front row. I watch and analyze saint. Watching how zombie he is. He don't speak like that no more saint always been quiet but not around me.  I pay close attention to the one tear that slides down his face. I wipe it making him look at me then back forward. Crazy thing is he wasn't even looking at her in the casket just at the blank wall.

He tapped my thigh and walked to the last row making me follow. I sit beside saint with my hand behind his neck rubbing it.

"Don't think of her as gone away, her journeys just begun. Life holds many facets, this earth is only one. Think if her as resting from the sorrow and tears"the pastor finished  earning claps from everyone except saint

He smacked his lips "Resting forever huh?"

And now from the family of Mrs.  Johnson.  Saint grabbed my hand pulling me up with him Me,amena and native stand behind him as he began to speak

Saint Dimitri Essex Johnson

"Ian gone get up here and front act like me and my moms was all close and shit when we wasn't. I did and still do got endless love for her. I remember when it was all four of us my pops her me and native.   My mama made it her business to make pops tech us to play basketball. All four of us would go to the courts and even my mama would play. I mean she was making big shots scraping knees and all." I said making everybody laugh.

"Problem was my mama was a money hungry crack head. She pushed my pops to the streets, she was in love with being a drug lord girl she loved the attention that came with being with my deddy. Soons my pops died her status did too. She start doing hard drugs becoming abusive,lying 24/7 and just a theif all over.  She wasn't my mama so I moved out she ain't been right since. But I done forgave her for all the shot she did I just wish I could've told her that before she left cause we wasn't on good terms." I said walking back to my seat feeling Aries wipe the tears I didn't know fell.

I watch amena talk about how she met my mama and how she treated her like blood too since we met before my pops died. About 5 people spoke then came Native. See native and I grief our dead  different just like we did with our father and homies. Native grief  loud with anger while I'm quiet and let the anger build.

"People say all the time you gotta forgive and forget."  Native start looking down with Amena behind him. 

"But I cannot forgive or forget nor can I love the women who killed my daddy and wanted that same fate for me." I watch him shed a tear I know he meant that.

"Y'all know my daddy was one of the most street niggas of there he ain't go for none. He was a family man.life was good before she turned to drugs and my pod was gone.  I remember me and my moms would go outside and sit onna porch drinking caprisuns talking about my future in basketball she told me how I'd make it and she'd be inna crowd sitting next to my wife Amena cheering me on. I miss that, when I called her mommy and we said I love you's. She changed so much after my deddy died.  she fell off started doing heavy drugs. she ain't love us no more pushed me to the streets told me I had to be the man of the house since honcho was gone. I asked her everyday how to be a man when she took my deddy away from me she pushed him to the streets to all for money . But like I said I'm healing and I'm waiting to get the clarity my heart needs. She forever in the deepest part of my heart" native said walking back to his seats earning more claps and tears.  As he cried in mena arms

"Your brother hurting too saint you can't keep shutting everybody out wooda you gotta talk to somebody" Aries told me

I just looked in her eyes

"Don't play that shit with me go talk to your brother." She said

I got up and went to check on Native.

Aries

After the service:

We sat eating food celebrating his mama life.  I brought saint a plate and sat by him in the back away from everybody. " I love you" I tod him

"It's a matter of time before you leave me too"
"Nah you got my heart it's some about you, ian going no where" I told him feeding him some of my macaroni "that's good ? Cause yk that crazy auntie Brenda Made that shit Ian tryna kill my baby." I ask

He just chuckled " it's good baby"

"Mmmh so food the only thing gon make you talk huh?"

"Nah I talk to you just don't wanna talk about her"

" I hear you baby, I hear you loud and clear."

Pack that shir up we gone, ima fuck witchu native he said as I hugged native and amena.

Ian updated in a hot minute soo why not

Lol I had to kill off the crackhead no crack babies on my block. 😂😂

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