𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐒━━━━━𝐂𝐇𝐑𝐈𝐒 𝐒𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐎𝐋𝐎✰

002

002
two months later

     SO TODAY I HAVE ALREADY BEEN accused of sleeping with a man in a relationship and had the girlfriend practically shade me in a instagram post. so yeah, todays going great. oh, and, i've also gained a hunda thousand followers.

my phone dings pulling me out of my daze and of course it's the one and only chris sturniolo texting me.

that's also reminds me, i learned he had a girlfriend on my own. am i mad he has a girlfriend?

no.

am i mad he didn't tell me he had one?

yes.

i shut my phone off and sit it down. i am not going to be a home wrecker. absolutely not. no matter what feelings i "have" or will have for him. my mom raised me right, even though that's how she got my dad.

long sorry really but i'll make it short. she slept with my dad while he was with his girlfriend of four years. it was supposed to be a one time thing but my mom got pregnant and my dad was in love with her. so the obvious happened, he left his girlfriend of four years for my mom and they quickly got married at the age of nineteen.

but hey, she raised me to hate girls like her. so i shall not be one of them girls.

it's been two months since payton's told me about going to visit the boys for the summer. it came a lot quicker than i thought it would, and like she said i would, i almost backed out and stayed with mom and dad.

we leave tomorrow but i still haven't worked up the courage to tell chris. i don't know if it's because i feel like it's just because it's none of his business, or because i'm trying to avoid him. either way i think i'm doing the right thing.

we've been texting everyday since he first dm'd me. he's really, really nice. kinda like a really good friend to me. but i don't know how to feel about him leaving out the whole, "i have a girlfriend" talk. leaving me to find out because of instagram.

i'm not going to let him know, but it really pissed me off. i should've been told. if, and i mean if i liked chris that would've been devastating when he broke the whole, "i have a girlfriend" talk on me.

i don't know how i feel honestly, but i'm still pissed. i should've stopped texting him the moment i found out, but i can't. which is crappy on my part, because i know if a girl was texting my boyfriend all the time, i'd be pissed. especially if she was smoking hot.

like me.

paytyn bust through my door and throws herself down on my bed right next to me. "perfect timing." i say looking over at her.

"penny for your thoughts?" she ask.

i love when she ask that. she's been asking me that since i was a little girl. she started it because when i was younger i had cooler red hair like a penny. even though my hair turned brown she kept the joke running.

"christopher." i say huffing and raising my eyebrows.

"what now?" she ask. we both stare up at the ceiling. she accepts the silence... for now.

"the whole girlfriend situation. which i don't care, i just wish he told me."

"you care."

"i do not."

"then why are you dragging it out for so long? it's been two months. chris and leah have been together for years. chris just probably didn't think it was important or that you already knew."

"okay, fine. i do care, i care because i'm being called a whore and a slut for sleeping with some girls boyfriend even though i literally leave in a different country as him. so yes i care because i'm getting sent death threats by his little fans!" i snap at paytyn.

"okay, geez, fine. don't snap at me because your crush didn't inform you on his girlfriend that he so publicly is with."

i look over at her, "lose the sas."

"you have always been so easy to hurt. you need to learn to let stuff go and move on em."

she places her hand on top of mine. why am i hurt? i shouldn't be hurt? i've literally never even heard this man's voice. i don't think i like him, but i do think i hate the idea of people hiding stuff from me.

"i'm trying pay."

"i know emory. i know." she squeezes my hand and we just stare up at the celling.