Life's twists and turns

Chapter 3

Ian and I sat on the edge of our seats in the waiting room of the hospital while James slept in his car seat. Em had collapsed at home and they struggled to get her back on the ambulance ride to the hospital. We were prepared for the worst. It felt like hours we sat there, finally a doctor came and told us "she's back but probably not for very long. Her body has taken a beating and she's getting weaker"
I managed to squeak out "How long do you think she has" Ian had started holding my hand as comfort
"I'd say best case scenario she makes it through this week"
"And worst"
"She makes it through tonight"
My heart dropped into my stomach. I knew it was coming eventually but I never thought this soon. We were able to go into her room and see her. She had oodles of tubes sticking out of her. Her eyes flickered when we walked in.
She weakly said "hi guys can I hold James"
She was super drowsy. I sat down next to her while Ian unbuckled James. We held James together while he drank his bottle. She fell asleep with him.
Ian and I ended up falling asleep on the couch together while James slept on a crib the hospital provided.
We woke up to a sound of rapid beeping. Em's heart rate had plummeted. I ran to the call button but the nurses burst through the door as I grabbed it. They worked fast trying all sorts of things to get it back up. Emily like peaceful the whole time while they tried to revive her. I rocked James while tears poured down my face knowing that she wasn't coming back this time.

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Her funeral was beautiful, exactly how she wanted it. It was kept small just to people who she thought deserved to be there. Everyone spoke and said beautiful things about her. We spread her ashes at her favorite river. It was a beautiful day full of sweet words spoken and everyone being together. It was warm, my dress stuck to me. Ian and I took turns carrying James around. When it came time to spread her ashes we all drove together to the river and had a picnic before spreading them.
All and all it was a beautiful day celebrating her life.
Ian and I made our way home together while James slept in the back. He was knocked out from all the events today.
After Ems passing Ian moved in to help out with James more. So when we got back and went our separate ways after putting the baby to bed. I had the master bedroom and he was a couple doors down in a smaller bedroom.
I drifted off to sleep but woke suddenly when I heard my door open. I looked up and it was Ian standing my door way. He had tears streaming down his face.
He hadn't shed a single tear since em passed this came as a shock. I shot out of bed
"Hey what's going on come here"
He sat down and tried to tell me what was going on but couldn't catch his breath. We sat on the edge of the bed together for a while. He finally had calmed down enough to talk to me
"This is just all so overwhelming. I'm in a different city with a baby and a roommate I don't even know in the least and em died and it's just all too much"
We sat on the bed and talked for a while. I had shimmied back under the covers and he sat on the other side. At some point we both fell asleep.
I woke up with drool plastered to my face. Ian was passed out on the other side of the bed. I managed to get out of bed without waking him. James was still sleeping so I made my way downstairs