The Curse of the Silenced Wolf

Chapter 13: Empowered

"Bree are you in here"

I sat up in the closet. My back was sore from sleeping on the floor, but I've slept in worst places. I stood up and walked out of the closet.

"What are you doing in there" Alcide asked.

I shrugged. I wasn't in the mood for socializing. I just wanted to go back to sleep. I was tired of being yelled at. At this point, if my life were to end at least I would be peacefully asleep.

I walked over to the bed and got in the covers. I was shutting down. I didn't care anymore about anything.

"Are you feeling okay" he asked.

I again just shrugged.

He walked over and sat at the edge of the bed. I could hear him take a deep breath.

"I'm sorry that I probably scared you." He paused and looked at me and looked back down. "I wasn't angry or yelling at you, thought I could have handled it better, it just infuriated me to see all those marks on you. It made me mad that someone did that to you and I lost control." He again paused looked at me and looked away. It was silent for a good minute. "You probably have nothing more to say to me, and I get it. If you want to talk though, I'm here to listen.... I spoke with Amelia." I finally looked up at him. "I needed answers and the quickest way I knew how was to ask her...She told me everything."

He looked so remorseful and sad. It kinda broke my heart seeing him this way. I didn't think the big Alpha King was suppose to be sad. "I really didn't mean for how I reacted to mean you did anything wrong. You have done nothing wrong, I am just upset that my mate has had to endure such trauma and it pisses me off knowing who did it. I am sorry"

It was again silent. I pulled the covers back and reached for my speech device and typed: "You really did scare me. After everything I have been through and you say that you would never hurt me, it made me think you were mad at me and were going to give me back to Rais especially since I haven't shifted yet."

He looked up at me with sorrowful eyes and scooted closer to me.

"I will Never give you back to Rais or to anyone for that matter. You are my mate and mine alone. I swear to you I will never hurt you. I am sorry that I did hurt you by yelling at you. I was mad, I shouldn't ever yell at you. It's no excuse for lashing out like that and I understand now what you've been through and I understand you can hurt someone without being physical, but I promise I will never yell at you again. I will protect you for the rest of your life. " He said sweetly.

He was being so gently and his words made my heart flutter. It was one of the nicest and most sincere sounding thing I have ever heard. I understand that he yelled but for some reason his reason for yelling made me happy. Someone was finally saw what has happened to me and is upset about it (aside from Amelia) and now this man who is strong and known to be fierce who I'm mated with sits before me giving me the best apology anyone has probably ever gotten. I am suppose to be mad at him but the way he makes my heart feel, I really do feel safer when he's around.

I guess I was in my thoughts to long. "Are you okay" he said bringing me out of my trance.

Am I okay? Physically I actually look better than I have in awhile. Mentally, that's going to need some work. Emotionally, I am not sure maybe if I found a dictionary of feelings I could narrow down these feelings I am having. Alcide says he talked to Amelia and knowing Amelia she would have told every detail...every single detail. Which probably means he knows more then just about the scars...

"Did Amelia tell you everything everything?" My device said.

Alcide looked at me longing. "Yes" he sighed.

"Are you mad?" I typed.

"Mad at what?" he questioned.

"Not mad but disappointed in the fact that I was jealous of you having other women and I was being a hypocrite" it spoke.

He looked stunned by what I had typed. "Your not a hypocrite" he said

Now I'm confused

"I don't understand. How am I not a hypocrite? I didn't wait for my mate either"

I could tell this didn't sit well with him. Was he about to yell again?

He took a deep breath.

"Ok. Well then answer me this, Did you enjoy it?"

I was shocked by his question. Did I enjoy it? Is he serious right now. I am assuming he saw me begin to get flustered and angry with his question.

"Just answer yes or no. Did you enjoy it?" he asked calmly

"No" I typed.

"Did it feel right"

"No" I again typed.

"Were you forced" he asked.

"Yes" I typed.

"Then the way I see it. It was not your choice. You were forced into something you did not enjoy or consent to, so by your choice you are still whole. Virginity is more then just sex. Yes, that is a BIG part of it, but if your mind was else where and you did not willingly give yourself to him then you did not give yourself away" he said softly.

This words rang throughout my body. I have never thought of it like this. I mean he's right. I didn't give myself away...

For this reason, I could feel a sense of relief wash over me. I had did have something Rais didn't take, something he couldn't force, my choice. A smile crept across my face and it seemed to have pleased Alcide because he too smiled.

"There's that beautiful smile" he whispered.

For the first time in my life, I felt...enlightened. I felt good. I felt happy. I felt...Empowered.