Lost My Way: Luxsoka Fanfiction

Chapter 1: Visions

Ahsoka's POV

I stared out into the void of space that was in front of me. My mind was somewhere else, recalling the last conversation I had with Lux Bonteri, when we said goodbye. I so badly didn't want it to be goodbye, but of course, he reassured me that we would see eachother again, one day, however far off in the future that may be.

It has been three long agonizing months since we said farewell. I returned to the Jedi and he went back to Mandalore. We kept in touch talking a bit here and there, over calls and messages. But with me being gone on missions constantly, and him dealing with the death of his mother, neither of us has had much free time. I couldn't help but feel like I wasn't there for him enough, like I had abandoned him somehow. I'm his friend and because of this war and my commitment to the Jedi order I'm not allowed to truly help him, like I real friend should. I wasn't there for his mother's funeral, or when he had to pack up her belongings and sell the house he had been living in since he was a child. I wasn't there when he moved to Mandalore and most importantly I wasn't there when Ventress killed Mina Bonteri. If I had stayed there one more day I could have saved Lux's mother. And that feeling of regret has been eating me alive. It's one of the many reasons I can't sleep at night. The thought that I could have done more haunts me. The thought that I could have saved his mother. The other reason I can't sleep is because I keep replaying the time when I tried to kill my master, over and over and over in my head. Remembering every little detail. How I had no control over my body, how I could only watch as The Son made me try and kill Anakin, who's like an older brother to me, but I would never admit that to him.

I would wake many nights with only one image in my head. The Son in front of me, jabbing a sword right through my gut. I would jolt awake in a cold sweat, sometimes crying or screaming until I realized it was only a dream. I would still hear the ringing of my master's voice in my ear, as he screamed my name.

"Commander Tano," I shook my head and blinked a couple of times, my vision soon cleared allowing me to see the trooper standing at attention on my left.

"Yes, trooper."

"Skywalker and the 501st are just r about to depart."

"Thank you for informing me, please keep me updated on there progress."

"Yes sir," The trooper saluted me and went back to whatever he had been working on.
With that I left the main bridge and headed for my own quarters. It doesn't take me long to get there. For one, the halls are mostly empty because everyone is either on the planet of Umbara or getting ready to depart there. I also know this ship like the back of my hand. Within minutes I arrived at my quarters. It wasn't much, a bunk bed with a desk and chair placed below it, along with a small closet. On the desk was the holoprojector Lux had given me along with a computer. The closet was mostly empty except for a dark brown cloak that I have never worn. I climbed up the ladder and sat down on the bed. I felt the worn out mattress move slightly from my weight. I laid my head down on the pillow, and I could feel my droopy eyes start to fall down before I even pulled the blanket over me.

The past few months have been hard. The missions are not getting any easier and I'm getting less and less sleep every night. I have given up on sleep all together, spending nights mostly meditating, trying to calm my mind. Reassuring myself that I am safe and that nothing could harm me. Even with my new powers, which I don't know exactly how to use or even what they are, I still feel afraid of the evil that lurks in the shadows.

So far I have found that The Daughter has given me super strength, super speed, agility, super healing, increased force powers, including mental and physical use of the force. Allowing me to create invisible psychic shields around my mind and body. As well as making me better at hand-to-hand combat and becoming a skilled all-around athlete. I also have super senses, which took a while to get used to. I could hear a blaster shot from across the ship and could see enemy troops from miles across a battlefield. I'm still figuring out how to use all my powers and I have no idea how many I have. It's been hard since The Daughter hasn't spoken to me since Mortis and at some points I really needed her wisdom and guidance. The craziest part about having these powers is that I can literally read anyones thoughts and they wouldn't know it. I have done it countless times with the clones as well as my master. You wouldn't believe the stuff that people think about. The best part is that not even Jedi masters, like Yoda, can read my own thoughts or know when I'm reading someone else's.

With all my meditation I quickly learned how to use my powers of telekinesis, to make any object move just by thinking about it. Once I woke up from one of my nightmares and every object in my room was floating in the air, including me. It was as if someone had turned the zero gravity on. As soon as I realized what was going on all the objects fell to the ground, including me. It's definitely pretty cool having super powers. But I know I wasn't just handed these gifts. I had a greater purpose that I would one day have to fulfill. I just hoped I would be ready for it. Minutes later, I was fast asleep, drifting off into a peaceful world of nothingness. Where nothing could go wrong and I didn't have to be stressed or worried. Unfortunately it didn't last very long. The beeping of my comm link immediately woke me up.

"Yes."

"Commander Tano, I wanted to inform you that General Skywalker has just called in an airstrike."

"Is there anything else trooper?"

"No not at the moment...Wait, I just got word that General Skywalker is being called back to Coruscant by Chancellor Palpatine and General Krell will be taking his place."

"That's very...unusual, please inform me if you get any more details about their progress and whereabouts."

"Yes sir," After that I tried to go back to sleep but with no luck. My stomach started to growl, and I realized I hadn't eaten a good meal in days. So I gave up on my endless battle for sleep and headed for the mess hall.

I was walking down the pure white hallways towards the mess hall when in the distance I could hear faint gun shots. I paused and looked around. There was no one. All the halls were empty. I shook my head. "I must be hearing things," I thought to myself. That's when a thick fog started floating down the halls, blurring my vision, until I could barely make out what was two feet in front of me.
Silence, darkness, nothing. An empty void of space and time was all I could see. Seconds later my vision formed and I found that I was yet again surrounded by darkness. It covered everything it touched and casted shadows over objects that created dim lights. I heard blaster shots, lots of them. I watched as blue bolts, coming from both sides, rushed past my face and met their targets. I didn't understand what was happening, and I had no idea where I was. But I knew that I was definitely no longer on the ship. There was no sun or moon or any other kind of plants visible from where I was. A vast jungle made of black trees and glowing red plants encircled me. That's when it clicked, I was on Umbara. The shadows that seemed too far away to see suddenly became visible. They were clones. Hundreds of them, in blue and yellow armor. Firing shot after shot at each other. It looked as if a civil war was taking place.

Bodies started to drop like flies being smacked from the air. All around me, more and more and more of my brothers fell to the ground. Dead. I wanted to scream at them to stop, but when I tried nothing came out. I was paralyzed, unable to do anything but watch, just like I had been when Mina Bonteri was killed. The vision faded and instead I heard a sinister laugh followed by a face, but I couldn't make out who it was. I heard voices, and echoing screams. But most importantly I felt a nerve racking amount of pain. The kind of pain when you are betrayed and have lost everything you have ever loved. I have no idea what's going on down there. But one things for sure, the clones are in trouble, and I'm going to be the one to save them.