i was woken up by the sound of my sister lexi screaming like she ran out of air. then i realized that i wasn't sleeping in my own room but on the couch in lexi's and Cassie's room. Cassie was in the bathroom and lexi was screaming at something. after a hot second i realized that it was a person lexi was screaming to. i stood up as soon as i realized that it wasn't mom. it was a guy... we were being robbed. i immediately saw it because he had a bag stuffed with objects and had a mask on. while i realized that, i was in shock and i couldn't help lexi or my mom. it felt like i had a connection with that person even tho i couldn't see his face because he had a mask on. i felt drawn towards that man, maybe i have seen him before was my thought a few days later. it was really scary but luckily he left the house without anything, straight to jail. i was only 12 so i just assumed that that feeling was something from the shock i had. even Lexi said it. i have a way better band with lexi that anyone even better than mum. Suze isn't my real mom i still grew up with her like my mum so that's what I've know for my whole life, i honestly don't know who my real parents are and i don't really need to know. the only thing i know about my mum and dad is that they were or are drug addict's. they left me with suze because she needed to babysit me, they just never came back and i don't blame them honestly. i'm kinda dumb and not hot or cool, its not like i have a bad life or something don't get me wrong. my life is just a by standing life of my sisters even tho they are only 1,5 years older than me, they are way more popular in school and they have more friends. i like all of them rue, maddy and kat the best friends of my sisters are also my friends because i see them so much. for lexi it doesn't matter that i also hang out with her friends, but with cas its a whole different story. Cassie was once so mad at me for hanging out with maddy she tried to put me on a train to the city and kinda get rid of me. i was just 12 and didn't knew how to get back on a train to home. mom was absolutely furious and cas was grounded for 3 months. she also needed to sleep in the guest room because i wanted to sleep with lexi. as i already said i dont have friends i made my own but my sisters, they treat me like a little sister and i really like that. some of my sisters friends where some real bitches but they already left town. witch i totally get because almost nothing happens to my life in this town, but my sisters were devastated. thats around the time i was 11 and around the time i became best friends with lex. when i turned 13 mum threw a huge party in the garden, i invited maddy, kat, rue and a few more people. mum was out of town so i didn't have to watch what i was doing. rue came with some more friends and maddy too. one of the friend rue brought was a drug dealer, when i heard it i found it super scary but when i saw the guy he didn't look scary at all, he looked really friendly. but when somebody pulled rue in the Jacuzzi he changed completely he beated the guy that was kissing rue in the Jacuzzi up. at first i didn't knew why but rue had taken drugs and was in another demention living her dreams probably. im lucky that that man saved rue because i didn't knew that she was half passed out so me and the rest wouldn't have seen it. i hate that guy btw his name is Nate, the boyfriend of maddy as almost every fucking person in the whole world knows. he thinks all the girls want him and shit, which is absolutely not true but he acts like it and thats why he is so annoying in school. all my friends are 1 grade above me because im 15 and they are around 16/17 except nate, his dumbass couldn't pass because he had way to much F's on his tests so he is 18/19 i dont even know.
suze, my mom is letterly the best mom ever. she lets me do thing other moms really wouldn't allow. like i can smoke, but only one cig in the week. it's not like i do that or something but sometimes at a party i take one or 2. and when i turned 13 i could drink like one glass of alcohol because mom doesn't believe that it damages your brain. witch is really handy for me, because altho i do not have a lot going on in my life, im very anxious almost all the time so when i have multiple panic attacks a day i usually drink like 3 glasses and i feel super relaxed for the rest of the day. i think around the age of 12 i started to have anxiety. back then it wasn't much but it grew ever since. now i have panic attacks almost every day but there are always people with me so they can help me calm down without them i think i would have had it way worse by now. but mom isnt only cool because of that i can do things others my age can't. she's also the sweetest mom. i can talk to her about issues, not like i have issues but i can also just lay down and watch a movie with her and she always asks me if she need to pack my lunch and stuff witch is really sweet. i also dont have any fights with her which is the opposite of cassie she's been acting like a bitch lately witch i really hate because she used to be so nice to me and a lot more people. lexi also doesn't fights with mum often. me and lex only had one fight with her and that was when she was super drunk and was dancing on the roof. we tried to pull her down but it was hard because im absolutely not strong and we needed to laugh the whole time because seeing your mom dance like an idiot on your roof can be funny tho. she got mad because she was inside again but she was not like super mad it was just yelling and then she want straight to bed. me and lex still laughed for a whole hour after it had happened.
heyy everyone! this is the first chapter about the book. if you see any mistakes comment it pls. and i dont know if yall want long or short chapters, i personally prefer long but its not a book for me so comment what yall like. oh and if you have any ideas for this book comment it! well i hope you enjoyed this chapter see you in the new one hopefully ;)
