I watched as Eren quickly came at the colossal titan. It swung its giant arm at the wall and took out our defense mechanisms. Whatever was up with the titan, it seemed to be smarter than it looked. The hot air burned at my skin. I rubbed my skin to relief myself of discomfort, but it did little to help. The grappling hook on my gear clung to the side of the wall, I wasn't sure how long it would last in it's purch. I watched as Eren slashed at the titan but it suddenly disappeared into a puff of smoke.
"Eren!" I yelled over the wall. "Are you okay?"
"Yeah. I'm fine. It disappeared before I could hit it." He said as he came up.
What happened next was more than anyone could bargain for. I was assigned the middle squad and a part of a team with Armin and Eren. Mikasa was put with the elite squad. There just happened to be too much for our team to handle and we were quickly overpowered by something that only had it's sights on one thing and one thong alone.
Human flesh.
I stood and watched my entire squad get eaten before my eyes. It's a horrible thing for a person my age to see. I wish mommy was here to make the bad things go away, but she's not. Tears filled in my eyes and my knees shook in fear. "I....don't want this anymore." I mumbled. "I....don't want....to die this way." It made my heart stop just thinking that I could die this way. I don't want to be eaten alive. I hate thinking like this. It scares me. Eren went after the titan that had eaten Thomas, but like a jack-in-the-box, a titan jumped up and tried to eat him but missed and tore off his left leg. My breathing quickened as I watched. Armin stood in horror as he watched the scene fold out in front of him.
My face was blank. I screamed on the inside. It felt like my body was being ripped in two. My head hurt, my entire body hurt. I'm tired of having to fight, I don't want to fight anymore. I'm sick of watching people die whether it was for a good cause or not. This felt worthless. A titan turned the corner and headed straight for Armin. It picked him up and opened it's mouth and dropped him as he screamed. I felt like I was going to go insane. Why can't I do anything? I'm useless!
"No...this isn't what's supposed to happen." Tears rapidly fell down my cheeks, but I made no sound. This was suicide. I noticed that Eren picked himself back up and pulled out Armin, but he was taken out in the process. "I can't take this anymore!" I said as I clenched my fists. My mind raced. "Everywhere you look. Another person you care about dies." I said. "I won't let that happen again." I immediately charged after any titan that crossed my path. I dug the hook of the rope into the nape of the titan then pulled in and slashed. It fell to the ground and steamed.
"Every single one of you stupid monsters will pay." I said, holding back tears. "All of you S.O.Bs will pay for every death you caused. And I'll make you do it by my hands!"
I took off and made my way back to where Armin was. "Armin!" I said. His face was pale as if he had seen a ghost. He was still in the same spot from earlier. I can only imagine how he must feel. I almost put a hand on his shoulder but remembered that he had just been in the mouth of a titan. Suddenly, I remembered. The day the titans broke down the wall, my father told me something.
"Aria, when your life calls for it, you must enflict pain onto yourself to change. You must bite your thumb. And you will assume Titan form."
I looked at my hand and turned around. "Armin. Be strong. Eren wouldn't want you to chicken out now. There's a reason we spent three years in training." I said.
I took off as far as possible and then bit my thumb. I was encased in a bright light and wrapped in the body of a female titan with red hair. My avatar roared and charged at the first titan that caught it's glimpse. I could feel as if this titan body evened the playing field. It brought amusement to me. It punched and kicked at every titan possible. It was like I had lost mind and gone mad.
Somebody please save me.
At the same time it almost didn't feel right. My inhuman body roared and charged at 10 meter titan and punched it with as much strength as it could muster up. It was like it had as much hatred as the entire remaining amount of humanity. I squashed its remains and roared again. It felt like I had lost control and the titan body was acting on its own.
I felt tears run down my cheeks as I cried silently. There was no reason for me to stop fighting now while I was still was at the winning end. I continued to attack mercilessly with no interest in the tiny humans below me. Neither did they try to hit me. There were stunned with the fact that a titan was killing a titan. I kicked a 6 meter titan like it was a ball and stepped on it to ensure death.
I felt sick to my stomach. I was blinded by anger and nothing made sense anymore.
No more.
I don't like this.
Make it stop!
