The Callahan Archives (In The Shadows)

ten.

!TW! // !Mentions of Suicide! // !TW!
! Please do not do anything you see in this chapter !

My fingers fumbled to open the door, and once it flipped open, the cool fall breeze hit me like a truck. A shiver shot down my spine.

There was Soren, standing on the roofs edge. The blond stood there looking out over lit windows in tall buildings and welcoming houses.

I honestly wasn't sure what to say, how do I help him? How do I save him.. How do I tell him it's okay? I could never imagine a world without him.

"Soren?" I ask in a louder tone so I'm heard over the high winds. He turns around at the sound of his name.

"You're not supposed to see me like this.." He sighed loudly.

"Wha- why are you doing this, Soren." I ask, taking a hard step towards him.

"Don't! Dont.. come closer." He shouts, shooting a hand out in my direction. I take a hard stop. It's suddenly struck me in my mind that I have no idea what to do. Have I really failed as a friend?

"Stay with me.. Please?" I pleaded with him. "Why are you doing this?" I ask once more.

"There's nothing left for me here." He says as his voice wavers, tears brimming in his blue eyes. He shifts a bit to look back over the edge of the ledge.

"What about me, Soren? I've always been here for you, and I will always be there for you!" I say softly but still loud enough to be heard over the winds.

"But there's nothing you can do, Arrow! You can't take away the pain! and if you tried, I'd just be a burden to you anyways." He argued, wiping the newly cried tears streaming down his face. Sirens could be heard faintly in the distance.

Faint voices and flashing lights were apparent down below at the bottom of the building. Muffled by the racing of the winds.

"This isn't going to solve all your problems, it just creates more. Time and help heals all wounds. Trust me.. if we just get you some hel-,"
He cuts me off.

"No! I'm not willing and weak! I should be able to handle this myself, and ending it would solve it." He shouts.

"Soren!" I shouted, taking a risky step towards the blond once again. "Needing help does not make you weak! It just means you've been strong for so long, that you need a break.. please." I plead with him again.

His shoulders slumped and I could hear him sobbing. It broke my heart. He wiped his eyes and looked back at me again.

"It doesn't feel that way, I feel worthless." He said, defeated.

I took another step.

"Because I care about you, Soren! I've always cared about you! Lots of other people care about you too, your friends in med school, your family watching over you. They all love and support you.. they believe in you." I said softly.

He cried harder and furiously wiped his eyes.

"Well I guess I'll finally be able to see them, and see if they do believe in me." He taking a step off the ledge.

"SOREN!!" I screamed and ran to the edge, making it just in time to grab his wrist, but my grip was slipping. I took his wrist in my other hand. He looked up at my with teary, red eyes.

"Please.." I asked as my grip started slipping. Tears started forming in my own eyes, but even though they blurred my own vision I could still see police cars and officers down below, some even rushing into the building. Thank god someone called the police.

"Stay with me.." I said in almost a whisper, so quiet i'm not even sure he heard it. My grip slipped more and I was so close to dropping him, and before my life could flash before my eyes, the rooftop door burst open and another hand grabbed his arm. With the help of the officer next to me, we were able to hoist him up.

When he was saffely back on the roof he fell to his knees, hyperventilating. I was quick to join him, and embrace him in a hug. I wiped my face from tears I hadn't realized I was even crying.

We embraced each other for a while with 2 cops standing on the rooftop waiting for our little moment to be over.

"I-I'm sorry.." He mumbled into my shoulder, inbetween shaky breaths.

"Just know you're not alone, I promise." I hugged him even tighter, and he seems okay to stay like this for a while.

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"We've got him in control. Here's the number of the closest facility you can admit him to." The officer smiled and I took the paper from thier hands.

"Thank you." I smiled back. Then pulled out my phone and called. It was about $5000 for his stay, but it's worth it if he gets the chance to get better. Still a good chunk of money.

I walked over to where he was sitting on the curb with an officer next to him.

"Hey Soren," I say extending out an arm to help him up, "Are you ready?"

He looked up at me with a small smile.

"Ready as i'll ever be, I guess." He took my hand.

"That's the spirit!" I smile and we walk to my car.

[•••]

I got him admitted to the hostpital, and he seems alright with it right now.

"I'll visit as much as I can," I said giving him a motivational pat on the back before he sat down on the bed.

"Okay," He said blankly. My smile faded a bit, I sighed

"It's going to be okay, alright," I said sitting down next to him, looking at his blank expression.

"Yeah," He said, and looked at me with a small smile.

"I know it's a lot to take in but you're gonna be okay, we'll do this together." I reassured him. He nodded along with me.

"Well i'm sorry to cut things short, but i've gotta get going. I left something unattended.."

"What do you mean?" He smirked at me.

"Oh nothing.." I chuckled nervously.

"Hmm.. okay.." He muttered, not believing me one bit, but I don't need him to believe me this time.

"Alright I have to go, it's late. I'll visit you tomorrow, okay?" I said getting up off the bed.

"See ya!" He waved, before laying down. I took one last glance at him before I left and started down the hallway towards the elevator.

Now i've got to get back to Cam, jeez, today was tiring.

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