Apathy

Path Three: Indecision

Indecision: Am I sure I can care? (Path 3)

Indecision answers, “Am I sure I can care?” 

I should wait until I’m sure 

How do I know this is what God wants

I should wait until things are clearer 

    The oldest path is indecision. “Are you sure?” is the devil’s favorite game to play with our minds. Think back to the Fall of Man in Genesis 3: “Did God really say you must not eat from any tree in the garden?” “Are you sure that’s what He said?”
    Doubt is Satan’s most destructive weapon; whether it is directed at God, others, ourselves, or all of the above. 

With God it can become a question of “was He really telling me to help this person? Did He really ask me to do this?” 

With others maybe it becomes, “Does he/she really need my help? Do they really need encouragement?” 

With ourselves… “Do I really know how to do this? Am I really sure this is what God wants of me?” 

When these doubts come to us, as believers, more often than not, our instinct is to wait. We decide to wait for a clearer sign from God. This can easily become a bottomless pit. Because when God speaks to you again or sends another sign, Satan will come back and whisper, 
“Are you sure that was a sign? Are you sure it was Him? Maybe you should wait a little longer.” 

The problem with waiting is it can desensitize you to the convictions of the Spirit and it allows opportunities to pass you by. One of my role models is a girl named Rachel Joy Scott, who is best known for being the first victim in the Columbine school shooting of 1999. In her journals, she describes a time when a poor woman came into her workspace, a Subway. Rachel kept working, even though she could feel the Spirit urging her to help the woman. While she was still deciding, another woman came in. When the second woman saw the poor woman, she ordered a sandwich for her. Rachel gladly made the second sandwich, but said she remembered her feeling of disappointment as the opportunity passed from her. 
“It was like I let a wonderful flame pass from me into the hands of another.” She would later write. 

God doesn’t ask us to be loving and compassionate toward others because He can’t do it Himself- in fact, He is more than capable of doing it Himself. He asks us to do it because He wants us to be His Hands and Feet, and experience being His Light in the world. 
Last thing. It is great to seek God’s guidance; always do so. However, when you do so, you have to keep your eyes open for His answer. God could be sending you sign after sign, and you’re just too blinded by doubt to notice. Quell your doubts, whatever they may be, and stop waiting just because you’re uncertain. Trust me, all it takes is that first step- that first “Yes, Lord”- and He’ll take you from there.