Have you ever felt like the world stays as it is, but your feelings just change, your heart changes its direction, and you outgrew someone so bad?
It was just her jealousy over a man, yet Lusiana felt a heavier feeling than being cheated with a girl. A man. He said he was bisexual, and she said it would be fine until she realized what was that meant.
Being with a bisexual person means that your relationship would always be merrier by the third wheel. They would be there, lurking and waiting for their time to have a good time and giving pleasure to your loved one, leaving you behind all alone.
No matter how big her feelings towards Bimasakti, or how fluttered her stomach was because of him, she could not feel anything rather than a change of heart. She never waited for his text anymore, and she could only wish for him to disappear. But then, it would have been unfair.
The flutters with bedazzling butterflies inside of her stomach had stopped. No more interest towards Bimasakti. No more time finishing enigmatic messages tried to find heartfelt code. No more. No more. No more.
So, when he asked about how she was doing, she found her time to talk about what she should speak about in the first place.
"Hey..."
"Hey, how are you?" asked Bimasakti to Lusiana over their phone call.
"I'm fine... uh, can I ask something?"
"What?"
"Can we meet next week?"
"Uh... I don't know, I have to plan it with Aulia."
"No need of her. Just both of us."
"I don't think I can make it."
She used to be confused why Bimasakti needed Aulia to escort him in their meeting, but then it was crystal clear. When you want to have a relationship with a man, but you were pushed to fall in love with a woman instead, you do need to be encouraged.
"Oh."
"What is it?"
"Hmm, I have something to say but I can't say it over a phone, that's why we need to see each other directly."
"Say it here."
Did he know about her change of heart?
But anyhow, she braved herself.
"I can't try it anymore."
"Why?"
"I asked my sister about you, and she said no, so no more of us, Mas Bima. I'm sorry."
"Oh, okay..."
That day, if the three Bimas were butterflies living in Lusiana's heart, then Bimasakti butterflies almost died. But that butterfly had to wait for a year to die in the end...
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Fragments of A Broken Heart (Completed)
Chick-LitWe tell a story about a modern-day breakup and love story with all the exhaustion and true face, rather than the romanticization of love. Feelings are a burden, and people tend to be untrue. People date one day and then break up the next day. It is...
