You can, you should, and if you're brave enough, you will.
That is your motto as you navigate the K-pop industry as the first female Caribbean-Korean Idol.
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~YOUR OUTFIT~
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As soon as I get back from MCountdown, my stylists rush me off to get changes, and finally, I stand in one of the dance practice rooms and turn on my first Vlive.
"Hello!" I smile, waving as people flood in. "Hello, hello."
I wait a minute or two.
"I have a question," I say sheepishly. "How many people is enough to start?" The comments start flooding in. "Now? I start now? Okay..."
I sit there awkwardly and burst out laughing.
"Okay, right, introducing myself in three, two... Hi I'm ZeeZee. I just got back from MCountdown and I'm so excited because this is my favourite Vlive." I clap for myself. "I wasn't really sure what to do, so I figured I'd answer some of your questions, probably dance for a little bit, and then do a mukbang maybe, because I'm so hungry."
I start reading the comments as their questions come in.
"Who's my favourite boy group? That's a good question. Um, don't hate on me because everyone has their own opinion, but right now, I think it's EXO, Victron and NCT. My favourite EXO song? Ooo, that's a hard one. I really like Electric Kiss, but Call Me Baby and Growl are sooo good."
"My favourite girl groups? Throwback to 4minute, Twice as well, Mamamoo and Exid. Oh wait, I forgot ATEEZ and NCT. Do I have a bias in ATEEZ? I feel like saying this could get me in a scandal, but I love Hongjoong and Seonghwa – I just think the mum-dad dynamic is so cute, ya know?"
"Do I like BTS and Blackpink? Yes, I do – I knew this question would be coming haha. My bias in BTS is definitely J-Hope, and I love Jennie from Blackpink, but obviously, all of the members are so cool. I think my favourite group song is Like, but I have to mention Jimin's solo song Lie – it's so good! My favourite Blackpink song is Whistle, but Kick it and Really are close seconds."
"Who do I want to collaborate with? You see, this is a good question. So, obviously, it hasn't even been a month since my debut album, but, after meeting up with Jackson I've started working on a Collaboration Project, and an English Album. I really want to get Jessi on one of them – I just love her work. No offence to JYP, but she carried Hey Mama.
"Do I diet?"
I hesitate at this question.
"No, I don't diet. During Sixteen I went through a period of not eating because of the hate comments, and then, when I was bouncing between companies for a few years, I couldn't actually afford food, so my relationship with food was really bad. But, when I joined PNation, PSY realised and helped me fix my eating habits. So now, I eat what I want and then work out to burn it off."
"Do I have a playlist? Yes, I do. I've got a public Spotify account with my playlists on it actually." I open my phone to check it. "Oh my gosh, Baekhyun listens to my playlist!" I shout, showing my phone to the camera. "Wow... just. Wow. Sorry, getting carried away."
"Do you think your concepts are too mature for your age? Ah, okay, so I definitely agree that my first solo performance on Sixteen was way to mature, but there was no way to complain about it, and I would've been kicked off if I didn't do it. As for my album, I'm almost eighteen and compared to other things out there, I think my songs are quite tame, so no. I think my concepts are pretty good."
I start getting bored of answering questions, so I stand up.
"Alright," I smile, clapping my hands. "Time to dance," I smile.
