End of Our Silver || Jikook

10

The door bell rang . It took some time for Jungkook to break from his thoughts and answer the door .
Jungkook weakly opened the door and slowly looked up as the door opened .

"Hyung.." , the younger's eyes were filled with tears instantly . His whole body felt weak , he dropped down to his knees . The worst case scenario playing at back of his mind .

'What if he's just here to take his things and end us completely?'

"Hyung, I'm sorry. I didn't know what to do. I was really scared. I never meant to hurt you. I never cheated on you. I just-" , each word punctuated by a sniff or a
sob , the younger tried to explain himself but was cutoff by Jimin .
Jimin picked Jungkook up by his shoulders .
"Don't worry, I'm not going anywhere. Don't overthink. I'm not leaving you."

Jungkook looked so broken , his eyes - blank but still filled with pain as he stared at the older wordlessly .

"Jungkook ,.. kook ,.."
Suddenly , the taller fell into the older's arms - unconscious .

'Too light' , the shorter thought of the unconscious man in his arms .
'He's too light' .

After making Jungkook lay on the bed , Jimin quickly called Yoongi , his manager to ask him what he should do right now . Yoongi went to med school for 2 years (pressured by his parents) and dropped out to debut as full-fledged rapper and producer . 8 years later , he found Jimin and decided to be his manager and producer , and help him navigate through this tough industry .

Jimin explained the whole situation .
"Wake him up fast , give him juice . And let me sleep :) Bye/"

Jimin noticed the younger's extremely thin hands while he waited for him to finish the juice he had handed him. Somewhere inside him , the older felt guilty.
'I shouldn't have left him like that'

"hyung" , Jungkook's voice was breaking a little .
The older nodded lightly in response , "hm?"

"I - I'm really sorry" , a tear traced the younger's right cheek .
"I know I'm an inconvenience, I'm really sorry. You don't have to move out, I - I'll go. I'm sorry , I won't bother you anymore and -"
"Seriously Kook ? You think like that about me ? You think I take you as an inconvenience ?" , Jimin's tone was a little too harsh . On seeing the younger on the verge of tears , the older sat down next to him and made him turn his head towards him . "Kook-ah , I'm not leaving you , I'm NEVER leaving you . Don't worry . Just rest your mind for sometime , your body as well . I'll wake you up when the dinner's ready" . The older kissed the younger's forehead before getting up to leave . Just as he got up , he felt tugging on his hoddie .
"Hyung .. leave your hoodie .. please"
Jimin understood immediately that Jungkook was in little space . He quickly took off his hoodie , smiling to himself a little , and gave it to him . He bent down and gave his baby a peck and left him to sleep after caressing his hair .

Closing the door behind him , Jimin let out a sigh of relief . Jungkook being in little space was a sign that the younger felt secure now . He wasn't overthinking anymore and would tell the older honestly whatever he feels .

Jimin decided to just look around the place with the curiosity to know what exactly was Jungkook upto all the while the shorter was gone .

The older was sitting on their living room couch with a bunch of things on the coffee table .

1) A lighter
2) Half a box of cigarettes
A number of empty boxes were discovered in the garbage bin as well . And empty beer bottle , 22 in number , lying beside the bin .

3) Two big rubber bands - one of them broken

4) A blood drenched blade
5) A blood drenched note

Jimin goes to the bed and pulls up the left sleeve of Jungkook's hoodie revealing an agonizing sight . His arm was covered with cuts , bruises and strange red marks . Tears started falling as he realized the pain the younger went through just because of him . He starts searching for the first-aid box and made his way back to the bed after finding it . The shorter tried his best to control his sobbing but he just couldn't . While pressing the disinfectant onto the younger's skin and seeing his love flinch in pain even in sleep , the older's heart was hurting badly , he wanted to scold Jungkook for this but then again , he felt accountable himself .
'How can I be So inconsiderate and insensitive , especially when I know how Jungkook used to be'
Past scenes of bruised arms , suicide notes in the younger's broken handwriting , clean blades in random drawers and red shower drains , all flashed in his mind one by one . Jimin decided to get up , he can't stop his tears anymore but didn't want to wake the drained younger up .
"Please .. don't go. Jimin-shi .."
Hearing 'jimin-shi' from Jungkook's mouth in such a long while , the older felt happy , a smile spread wide in his face .
Wiping his tears , Jimin pushed his own hoodie aside to lay next to the younger . Jungkook shifted himself so that his head was on Jimin's chest and the older's arms warmly engulfed him .
"Sorry guk-ah" , the shorter whispered while pressing the gentle kiss on his baby's hair .
"Wasn't your fault . Kookie shouldn't have"
For the first time in a long while , Jimin giggled with a full heart as his sleepy boyfriend fell into deep sleep and started snoring mid sentence .

His world back into his arms and this time with the security that they were the only ones for each other , the older had rediscovered the safe place he thought he had lost forever .