Listless Princess

Chapter 17

Years have passed and I'm back at the same ending once more.

"Are you guilty of your sins?"

I have lost count of how many times I've heard that.

Why didn't things go well this time as well? Haha! Why did I even expect something to go well in the first place?!

I shouldn't have let my guard down when that person began showing signs of kindness.

I shouldn't have let myself feel the love I've never gotten before that he abruptly gave out for the first time.

I should've killed Jennette first, she was the reason all this have happened!!!

But...

What's the use.?

I will die... Go back in time...

Die.... Go back in time...

And there's never an end.

Why?!!!!

Why is this happening to me?! Is it my fault that I wanted parental love? Is it my fault that I was born in this world...

Meant to suffer the same fate on repeat?

Noo-

Please....

Let it all end!

"me...

"Hurry...

"Hurry up and please kill me."

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Athanasia muttered. Her emotionless face does gives people goosebumps, however... She looked like she was in pain.

But no one could tell.

No, they didn't pay any attention, they didn't even bother.

"Please kill...me..."

She begged, and begged....

Tears wouldn't fall, but she desperately begged with her dead like crystal eyes.

"Please, kill me... I want to rest, I want freedom. I want to be free from the shackles of fate!"

No one could understand her, no one could.

No one.

"I do not wish for anything else, but please.... Please kill me....

...set me free..."

The people were confused. But Athanasia didn't care.

Because Athanasia wasn't talking to any of them.

She was talking to the only being that knew of her situation.

"World tree.... Please...."

"Please kill me..."

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I woke up. I dreamt of the past that only existed in my memory.

If only I couldn't remember anything after dying, would I have felt a little bit relieved?

No, that possibilities doesn't even exist.

There was that time where I loathed the world, this empire, everyone and even myself.

It is not normal for a person to stay sane in this kind of situation. Walking a path of darkness, a tunnel that has no end.

Trapped by walls on all four sides, I look up but the lid of the box was also closed.

I couldn't escape.

I can't.

'Everytime I see you, you always seemed to be at lost.'

'Well, I am. I am lost... I don't know where to go since my fate has already been set in stone.'

'That's tough'

'Tough? not really.'

'Why do you say that? Someone said to me that, when one has a beginning there must also be an ending.'

'That's... That only applies to those who are the main characters of a fairytale.'

'Aren't you also a main character?'

'Hmm, but a main character doesn't give up... I can't fulfill that requirements that every main characters have.'

'What do you mean?'

'Because, I've already given up on everything.'

A brief conversation I had with a little kid in the past. He was quite a curious kid, always seems to poke his nose where it doesn't belong.

But those nosiness of him, I didn't mind it.

'Don't worry Miss! Everyone is a main character of their own story! No one have to fullfill a single requirement. It is your life, your story... So you must be the one to decide what to do with it.'

Heh. For such a small child to be filled with wisdom. But what he said, made me happy for a little bit.

"Lily, there is a place that I want to visit alone. Can I go?"

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Enlo, Tam the pig here. It rlly has been a while, i forgot what to do with this story so I just wrote whatever comes to mind. But hope you enjoy.