Ambition

Chapter 36.

6 months later ..

Monica|Mo

Twon had been gone alot lately .. he'll come home around 4:30 every morning 3:00 on a good night. He wasn't going to his classes , fell out with his mama. Talking to me crazy. Majority of the time he sleeps in another room.

I was beyond frustrated at this point. I came to the conclusion that he was upset that I wasn't pregnant yet and he's been trying so hard. And I came to that conclusion because he came home one night drunk accusing me of taking plan b's behind his back .. like who the fuck about to be paying $50 for a plan b every day ?

Asking me what's wrong with me and why I can't give him a child. Blaming me for the miscarriage

I stayed locked in the room , in the bed for the next week. To say I was hurt would be an understatement.

" Mo " I looked up and he stood in front of me

" Yes ? "

" Are you okay ? "

no.

" Yeah i'm good , you okay ? " I smiled at him

" Yea i'm just checking on you. Tryna make sure the voices in your head ain telling you to kill yourself or sumn " He said and I made a face

They definitely are

" Nope " I simply said before getting up

" Why you walking away and we having a conversation ? " He called out behind me

" We're not , that's the point "

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" Wassup " I dryly said as I walked into Tay's house.

" What's wrong with you ? " she asked me and I looked up and saw Daeshaun sitting on the couch

" Ion wanna talk about it , wassup dae "

" Wassup wit you ? I ain seen you ina minute " He nodded at me

" Cooling "

I could feel Tay watching me and I mugged her

" Stop it. " I told her and she shook her head

" No , what happened ? "

" Leave it alone ok " I lowkey snapped on her

" Oh fuck no " She grabbed my wrist and pulled me all the way upstairs to her room and into the bathroom

" Go head " she said after she closed and locked the door and I immediately bursted into tears I never even realized I was holding back

" It's so harddddd , I don't wanna do this anymore. Any of it. I can't " I sobbed

" What you don't wanna do ? "

" Live " I cried and she pulled me into a hug

" Monica what the fuck happened ? "

" I just wanna leave , i'm not okay right now. "

" Where are you going ? "

" I don't know , I wanna move. I just- I don't know "

" What the fuck happened ? "

" T-Twon- "

" Has lost his fuckin mind " She cut me off and I looked at her crazy

" No seriously that mafucka been tripping , but what did he do ? "

" I didn't tell you this , I haven't told anyone. He's just been tripping lately. Coming home at 4:30 in the morning every night. He flashes out on me all the time. He blamed me for the miscarriage , blames me for not being pregnant yet. He said i'm taking plan b's behind his back. Just before I left he asked if I was ok , said he wanted to make sure the voices in my head aren't telling me to kill myself. He's just different. " I vented and she just sat there listening