Ishqiya 2 (Continued)

None can handle heartbreaks

Hamza comes back home later at night, eats dinner with family like nothing even happened and then goes up to his room and locks himself up. He lets out the cries and yet again feels guilty as to why is he even crying. He thinks to himself," Why am I even crying? For who? For the person who cannot even forgive me or give me a chance for once. Itna toh Allah bhi apne bande ko maaf kar deta hai." He hits the mirror in his room in frustration and hits the broken pieces again and again until his hand doesn't seem to feel anymore.

His hand is bleeding profusely, as he hears a knock on the door, his family is standing there as they heard the glass shattering. Hamza tries to put on a brave face, but he fails when his mother asks him what happened to his hand. He hugs her and starts sobbing again. Zoya and his father are also beyond shocked.
"Mama woh meri kyun nahi ho sakti? Main itna bura hun?"
"Beta kon? Kya hua hai batao toh? Dekho apni mama ko aise tang mat karo mere bache mujhe batao kya hua hai?"
"R-Rumi" Hamza says in broken words while he pulls away from his mother and starts wiping the blood from his hand.
Saman looks at her child helplessly and immediately takes his dupatta and wipes the blood that is dripping while she has tears in her eyes.
"Mere bete aisa kyun kiya tumne?"
"Mama bleeding bahot ho rahi hai hamein Hamza ko hospital leke jana chahiye, he hit the glass. Toh hamein koi risk nahi lena chahiye." Zoya says panicking.
"Han. Han chalo."

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Hamza's family rush him to the same hospital where Rumi's mother is admitted.
"Dad yahan nahi. Kisi aur hospital mein chalein." Hamza shrieks with pain.
Zoya immediately understands that this had something to do with Rumi as she knew Rumi is there, that's why Hamza doesn't want to go.
"Arrey beta this is the closest hospital. Bas thore time ka kaam hai. Aajao mera bacha shabash." His father assures him.

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They go into the hospital and ask for emergency.
Rumi can't be seen anywhere. Hamza thanks God that Rumi didn't see him.
After a while when Zoya is outside for the patient records and payment, Rumi comes out of the hospital room, and sees her. She wonders what Zoya would be doing here at this time.

"Zoya? Tum yahan is waqt?" Rumi asks.
"Rumi pehle tum batao? Koi baat hui hai tumhare aur Hamza ke darmiyan?"
"Uh, n-nahi toh. Kyun kya hua? Hamza theek hai?"
"He hit the mirror in his room. Andar stitches lag rahe hain usko. All around his hand."

Rumi's eyes stay wide open.

Zoya continues, "Rumi you know what's the most painful and the still the most funniest thing? The Hamza who used to hurt himself, get mad and do stupid things in anger is back. Tumhari mohabbat ne usse badla tha, ab tumhari hi nafrat ne usse waapis badal ke rakh diya."

"Main usse nafrat nahi karti."

Zoya gives her a shallow smile.

Rumi waits for him outside the door. After sometime Hamza's family comes out except him as the doctor is briefing him about the stitches. His mother looks at Rumi like she's in pain.

"Assalamualaikum aunty." Rumi says while lowering her eyes.

"Walaikumsalaam beta. Uh, ek baat kahun?" Saman asks.
"Ji?"
"Beta mere bache ki sazaa khatam kar do. Usse maaf kar do. Mujhe pata hai woh galat tha. Lekin kya karun, main bhi ek maa hun. Bahot sazaa kaat te hue dekh liya hai maine usse. Jab woh mere gale lag kar rota hai na toh meri mamta bhi usse chup nahi karaa paati. Allah toh maaf kar dega usse. Lekin Hamza ko toh chainn tabhi ayega na jab tum usse maaf kar dogi."

Rumi looks at her, speechless. Because she knows the pain of a child and she can literally feel what Saman is feeling right now.
She nods a little bit. Saman puts her hand on her head to give her a blessing.
"Hamesha khush raho beta."
She says and leaves.
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After a few minutes Hamza comes out of the room. He is shocked to find Rumi outside, he was not expecting her to find out.
"Yeh kya pagalpan hai Hamza? Tumhara dimag kharab ho gaya hai kya?"
The doctor comes out of the room as well, and tells them to go talk somewhere private as it is late and patients are sleeping.
Then Rumi immediately grabs his arm and pulls Hamza in the room, and closes the door.
"Tumhein zyada gussa aata hai?"
"Nahi toh?"
"Nahi toh kya haa?"
"Rumi ye kyaa kar rahi ho? Mujhe ghar jana hai mom dad Zoya bahar wait kar rahe hain."
"Toh theek hai mera jawab do aur chale jao. Tumnei kyun apna haath katvaya?"
"Galti se ho-"
"Galti mera sarr. Sach batao mujhe." Rumi's eyes widen with anger.

Hamza's temper shifts again to anger and he grabs Rumi by both the arms and he gets closer to her looking directly in the eyes, while his forehead touches hers. He had just had stitches but he still doesn't feel any pain, blood starts flowing from his hand where there were smaller cuts that couldn't be stitched. And the blood gets smeared on Rumi's arm.
"Toh suno. Haan maine gusse mein mara. Aur gusse mein jo chahe karunga khud ke saath. Tumhara koi haq nahi hai. Aur rahi baat ye ke kyun kiya. Apni qismat pe ro raha the isliye kiya. Rumi kya hai yaar, kitna mushqil ho sakta hai kisi ko pyaar karna aur usko na paana? Batao? Ek pyaar hi toh kiya thaa yaar? Kyaa? Tumhare bagair jee nahi pataa hun, khul ke has nahi pataa, balke khush bhi nahi reh pata ek lamhe ke liye. Aur yeh tumhein bata bhi kyun raha hun mujhe nahi pata. Lekin har baar tumhara chehra dekhta hun na Rumi toh ek dil mein aas hoti hai ke shayad mujhe maaf kar de mujhe apnaa le. Lekin main bhi kya kya sochta rehta hun na."
Rumi still has her eyes fixed into Hamza's. Her arms are hurting but she doesn't want to tell him to let go. Tears flow from her eyes.
"Tummmmm kyun ro rahi ho yaar. Aur gunah badhaa rahi ho tum mere tumhein pata hai? Main tumse baat bhi karta hun toh tum ro jaati ho isiliye meri- meri sazaa khatam nahi ho paati." Hamza is speaking non-stop.

He finally lets go of her arms and joins his hands.
"Hum jab bhi milte hain milkar toot kyun jaate hain jud kyun nahi sakte?" There's a small pause as he wipes his tears, "Achha chhodo. Mujhe maaf kardo. Maine tumhein bahot dukh diye hain ab aur nahi-aur nahi basssss! Khudahafiz Rumi Allah tumhein jahan ki saari khushia dein." Hamza says and immediately leaves the room.

 
Rumi questions herself for this pain that both of them are suffering through. She thinks, "What if he does something serious to himself, I won't be able to live with it. Why can't I seem to forgive him? Is it really possible for us to get back together? Is it possible to forgive him. Allah forgives his people, so I'm nothing in front of Him. But how do I convince myself." She closes the door again and lets out a sob but immediately covers her face with her hands. She's not able to stand anymore and leans against the door and then sits down on the floor.

💔LOVE IS PAINFUL💔