Chyna's POV
*Next afternoon *
I never really gave too much thought into Alaysha and Saiyer's situation. I thought she'd be more than happy having a big family, even if the kids werent all hers . thats what she wanted a big family,right?
Being fourteen i dont really have a voice . im just surprised Alaysha took me with her. I guess she considers me as an real member of her family.
I smile to myself as i stirred the pot of soup that i prepared for lunch for all my "brothers and sisters ".
If anything though , i would've i assumed Alaysha would've lashed out about me first. I'm the daughter of the man who raped and impregnated her but i guess thst makes me Michael Jollé's only real sister .
I slap my forehead with confusion . what am i even saying? A real sister? We're all family.
" lunch is ready everyone sit down at the table please!"
Alaysha's POV
I hear Chyna yell out of lunch , i didnt realize it was so late in the day. I been in bed since last night, haven't slept since i got home but i have been in another world .
I been dreaming and dreaming about just a lode with Me and Michael Jollé. Nobody else . sometimes i imagine Chyna visiting in my dreams.
I smack my face into the pillow and start to groan . tears start to come to my face .
I wasn't suppose to have every one elses baby. My dream was to have a family of my own .
The dream was to raise my kid with my bestfriend by my side ; not with her in thr ground and her kids now living in my house . sure its better than them living in a foster home and i do love those kids but im spiraling out into depression being smoothered by so many kids . kids that arent even mine . kids who were even brought here by a sin , infidelity.
My tears turn into sobs and i hear the bedroom door crack open . i immediately stop and look up.
" Alaysha ,we need to talk. " Saiyer says as he shuts the door behind him and puts his bried case down
I dont wanna talk , i wanna get away from every one. Including you .
" baby we gotta talk about whats going on. " he says as he sits on the bed next to me
I bite my buttom lip , theres too much i wanna say .
" say anythin" he pleads
"Okay well-" i clear my throat " i just didn't imagine a family this way ." i say truthfully
" i know Dalliyan's kids are a burden but-" in my head i cut him off there ... He keeps rambling on and on but, nothing he said mattered . Dalliyann's kids , a burden? They werent the problem, it was Samir and Jacob that bothered me. Your whore's kids . If you hadn't cheated . i wouldn't mind our situation at all.
In his mid-sentence I get off the bed and walk out the room into the bathroom . i shut the door behind me and crotch down into a low swuat position with fist fulls of hair in my hands .
" i cant do this " i mummbme to myself .
As i cry the tears hit the hard tile floor. What am i suppose to do ?
Saiyer's POV
As she left in the middle of my sentence, i realized, i can't except her to listen to me . i was the cheater would broke her dreams of what she really wanted .
I left tge room and went back downstairs . the kids were surrounding the tv. I couldn't help but smile how they all layed so close together and watched the episodes of Mickey Mouse Club House ,and laughed historically.
