𝓣𝓻𝔂 𝓐𝓰𝓪𝓲𝓷

𝓒𝓱𝓪𝓹𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓞𝓷𝓮

𝓚𝓪𝓽𝓼𝓾𝓴𝓲'𝓼 𝓟𝓞𝓥

𝓘𝓯 I could go back to the past and prevent myself from living in this hell like present, I would. I would go back and enjoy my youth and explore the different paths in life that I never knew I had. I wouldn't torture myself. I would be happy for once in my life.

 *Buzz Buzz* It's midnight. Happy birthday to me I guess. Of course he isn't here to celebrate with me like all of my other birthdays in the past 7 years of our marriage. Fine, I'll give him what he wants I thought as I signed the divorce papers.

 𝓣𝓮𝓷 𝔂𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓼 𝓪𝓰𝓸 𝓽𝓸𝓭𝓪𝔂

"Happy 18th birthday Bakubro!" Kirishima yelled into my ear. That damn shitty hair is going to be the reason I go deaf. "Yeah happy birthday Bakubabe!" Racoon eyes and the other extras screamed. "SHUT UP YOU EXTRAS! I'M GOING TO BE DEAF!" I screamed at them. If I was being honest, I was really glad those damn extras remembered my birthday. Of course I would never tell them that. As the rest of class 3-A came in and congratulated me, Aizawa finally told us to settle down and get ready for class. "Today's first period is going to be grouping into teams and strategizing together on how to take down 'villains', but first of all happy birthday Bakugou. Now everyone group into teams of 5 and start working together. And don't be too loud." He finally said as he snuggled into his yellow cocoon and dozed off.

   After Aizawa went to sleep the rest of the 'Baku Squad' came and sat around my desk. While everyone was plotting together I decided to take a nap and asked shitty hair to lend me his shoulder. Like always, shitty hair said yes with a grin on his face and said he would wake me up when class was over. However that never happened because as soon as I was getting comfortable Deku decided to interrupt my sleep to say, "Happy birthday Kacchan!" I decided the best choice was to ignore him and go back to sleep.

   That was  obviously the wrong choice because the damn nerd wouldn't stop repeating it until I answered. Luckily tape arms got the memo and said that maybe Deku should come back another time. Hell, that was a bad idea. The nerd had the audacity to burst out in tears! "I just wanted to say happy birthday Kacchan. I know you hate me but I was trying to be nice." He said while sobbing. I decided to continue to ignore him until a heard a loud thud. I looked up from shitty hair's shoulder to see icy-hot glaring at me with his hand on my desk. "Why do you have to be so difficult Bakugo. He said he was just trying to be nice and wish you a happy birthday. This is why I hate you." He said and while comforting Deku and heading back to where the 'Deku Squad' was sitting.

   Damn. That hurt. Before I knew it my vision started blurring and I could feel my nose burning. Racoon eyes noticing, said, "Hey guys I need to talk to Bakubabe for a second!" and pulled me towards the hallway while the rest of the Baku Squad started whispering. "WHAT THE HELL PINKY." I screamed at her. She just looked at me and said, "Are you okay?" Damn it. She knows me too well. Before I could respond I started crying. She just hugged me. Racoon eyes and shitty hair were the only two people I could cry in front of and were the only 2 people who also knew I secretly liked icy-hot. 

   After some time had passed she said, "We don't want anyone to get suspicious so let's head back soon. Go to the bathroom first and cleanup okay?" she said softly. I nodded my head and went to the bathroom. When I got in and didn't hear the other set of footsteps that had followed after me. 

   I went to the sink and splashed my face with some cold water to reduce the puffiness from crying. I was washing my face when I got shoved hard onto the cold bathroom floor. Damn, that hurt like a bitch I was about to look up and scream at the person who had pushed me when, "Oh, Kacchan are you okay? I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to bump you," a voice dripping with sarcasm said. My face paled as I looked up and saw the damn nerd standing in front of me. "Your face is all red and puffy," he said. "Were you perhaps crying? Was it because of what Todoroki said? You know, none of that would have happened if you had just said thanks when I wished you a happy birthday. It's really funny to watch you suffer every time I get hurt and blame it on you. Watching you get yelled at by your fiancée is even more entertaining. He will never love you."

   What he said was true. I, Bakugo Katsuki was the next heir to the Bakugou group. My parent's company was the second largest in Japan so I was supposed to be married off to the Todoroki group's next heir, Todoroki Shouto, to make business connections because the Todorokis were the largest company in Japan.  And my fiancée, would never love me. It was only a work marriage but it felt like a dream come true to me because I had always secretly liked him. Before any of this happened 3 years ago Deku and I were still best friends. Sure he was an annoying worrier and a nerd, but he was also kind and funny too. We had never been on the subject of crushes before because we never liked anyone in particular. That was before we got to UA. 

   At UA, Deku and I just had to fall for the same damn kid with daddy issues. That was the last of our friendship. To top it off, I was engaged with him for business purposes which made Deku really jealous. I never knew he liked icy-hot. I thought he would be happy for me but I was wrong. One hero vs. villain class, icy-hot and I were the heroes, while Deku and round face had been the villains. I was fighting with Deku and was about to win when Deku had gone flying across the field and was bleeding while crying. I don't know what happened. I know I didn't punch him hard because I was afraid of him getting hurt. 

   He looked horrible. He had a huge gash on the left side of his cheek that was bleeding heavily. "I know you were mad about me waking you up from your nap Kacchan b-but, you needed to wake up because class was starting. " He said while sobbing. I was shocked. Yeah we had argued the class before but it wasn't anything serious. "I-I'm sorry Kacchan." He said. I stood there in confusion when I felt someone jerk my arm from behind and I was met with two different colored eyes glaring at me. Damn. He was so fucking- "What the hell Bakugo. Why did you do that?" He asked while glaring at me. 

  "Do what," I replied. " I can't believe you would be so petty," he said as he let go of my arm and ran towards Izuku. I just stood there in confusion. Round face then walked up to me and slapped me. "You went over board Bakugou." She said seething with anger. What. The. Actual. Fuck. I had never been slapped by anyone. My left cheek stung as I stared at nothing. I was so angry I just ran back to the changing room with tears in my eyes. From that day on I was known as the 'bad guy' that had anger issues. From that day on, I was also hated by icy-hot and lost my friendship with Deku. Shitty hair and racoon eyes and the rest of the Baku Squad tried to explain that it was probably an accident but that didn't matter. No one believed it. 

   "Look at someone when they're speaking to you!" Deku yelled. I had zoned out thinking about the past that I could never change. "Look at you looking so pitiful and weak lying there on the floor. Your so weak Todoroki would never want you." He said while chuckling. That was it. I had enough. I stood up and punched him in the face. Suddenly the bathroom door burst open with icy-hot standing at the doorway. He looked at me and then saw Deku on the floor crying with a bruise on his cheek. "I know Midoriya always told me to be more forgiving to you but I always knew could never change from your hateful ways. Your just jealous that Midoriya's new quirk could be stronger than yours and the fact that I would much rather have him as my fiancée. I can't believe you." He said as he carried Midoriya out and glared at me one last time.

  I fucked up again. Now he will never love me. 

   That was the end of chapter one but what did you think? I've never written a book before but I hope it wasn't too confusing! March 10th 2022

 Edit : tbh this book isn't too bad lmao might update soon ja editing for now January 17th 202