What is Love (BoyxBoy)

I just wanted one taste. Is that too much to ask?

Did he just say what I thought he said? Was it true? Was Mr. Baldwin actually gay?

I wanted to pinch myself but I realized that doing that would probably make me look stupid.

I can't believe it, the guy who I have a crush on, the same guy who Zach was flirting with was gay. I wanted to pass out.

I realized that I haven't said anything after his confession and that he was staring at me, waiting for me to say something.

"So they bullied you because you didn't want to touch tuna but you wanted to touch hotdogs?" I said. Sadly this was my attempt of trying to make a joke.

I didn't expect him to smile or even laugh at it. "Yeah." He said, trying to stop laughing.

Wow, if he thought that was funny then I could practically say anything stupid and he could smile or laugh at it.

It was nice hearing him laugh, he has a nice laugh. It was one of those laughs that made you want to join it, but I didn't.

"I'm sorry about what happened to you, Mr. Baldwin." I said.

"Hey, we're not in school, there's no need for the professional titles, call me Anthony." he said, with a smile.

Calling a teacher by his first name? Is that even allowed? I didn't know. It felt wrong, it felt as if I was stripping him from his identity and giving him a new one.

"Okay, Anthony. Uh, what made you become a teacher?" I asked, trying to left the awkward tension in the air.

"Well, I didn't really want to become a teacher. I wanted to be a therapist for people like us. I wanted to be the person that could help talk someone through their problems, to help someone not commit suicide. I took a few classes at a community college, but I realized that ignorance starts at a young age. With that knowledge I decided to become a teacher to help teach kids that ignorance will not be tolerated in the world." he said, taking another sip of his coffee.

"Wow, you seem like you would be an amazing dad and husband." I said, staring into his eyes.

He chuckled, "Where did that come from?"

"Uh, I was just saying that. You give off great father vibes and stuff like that." I said, looking like down.

Why the hell would I say that? I feel so stupid, so freaking stupid!

"Being a father is a lot of responsibilities, but it would be great to be married to a guy who would want to have kids." he said, smiling.

"Oh, so the other Mr. Baldwin doesn't like kids?" I asked, grinning a little bit.

Please don't be married, please don't be married.

"There isn't another Mr. Baldwin, just me." he said.

And this is the part where I do the most stupidest thing I have ever done in my life. "Yes!" I stood up yelling. I threw my hands up, wanting to do a happy dance.

I looked around to see everyone in Starbucks staring at me with questionable glares. Diana shook her head, smiling at me. Mr. Baldwin was laughing really hard. I felt like a complete idiot.

"I, uh... just got a text from my mom. She's, uh, bringing home... pizza." I said, slowly sitting down and hiding my head in my arms.

Is there anyway possible I could go back in time to punch myself in my face before I ever did that?

"What kind of pizza is it?" Mr. Baldwin asked, still laughing.

I looked up at him and said, "Meat lovers." I narrowed my eyes at him.

"If you're that happy that I'm not married then you're gonna blow the roof of this place when I tell you I'm single." he said, wiping a tear from his eye.

"You're single?! How could such a beautiful man like yourself be single?!" I really need to learn how to control my mouth.

"Lets just say that there aren't many guys who meet my standards." he said.

"Standards? You have standards?" I asked.

"Yeah. He has to be cute, has to be smart, younger than me, has to be able to make me laugh, has to have the ability to write good stories in poems, and has to have strikingly beautiful blue eyes." he said, leaning in closer to me.

I sucked in air, was this his standards or was this a description of me? What am I saying? That was his standards. He may have said that he likes younger guys, but younger couldn't have meant high school student.

I realized that he was leaning in closer to me with each growing second, and I found myself doing the same. I just stared at him with his incredible brown eyes.

We were a few inches from each other, well our lips were inches away. My head, on the other hand, was resting on his head. I wanted so badly to close the gap between us, like so freaking badly.

But guess what... My phone rings!

I jumped and quickly fetched my phone from my pants pocket. My mom was the one calling me.

"Hello?" I answered quickly. Mr. Baldwin was staring at me with a confused expression.

"Daniel, can you come home? Your father and I have a surprise for you." My mom said.

Damn, of all the times that she could've called me it had to be now? Why world, why?

"Uh, sure. I'll be there in ten minutes." I said and watched as Mr. Baldwin began to frown.

I hung up the phone and put it back in my pocket. I let my head hang because I couldn't take seeing him sad. He placed two fingers under my chin and lifted my head up.

"I'll see you in school tomorrow, Mr. Smith." he said with a small smile.

I closed my laptop and grabbed my coffee. "Bye Mr- er Anthony." I smiled back at him and left.

I got in my car and immediately banged my head on my steering wheel and few times. I love my mom to death but she really knows how to ruin a moment!

I started my car and drove home, wanting to know what is so dang important that I missing out on the best kiss ever?