Bullied by the sidemen

Chapter 10

I decided it was time to take care of myself a bit more. I got dressed presentably , and wore makeup which made the scares unnoticeable and I done my hair in a nice ponytail.
I was looking online and found this cream where it lasts for a full week and it's water proof and it will cover scars.
I looked okay for now , better than what I have done.
I took out my phone and pored on social media.
"Sometimes you have to smile , make the most of what you might not be able to do at some point "

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I grabbed my bag with my purse and left the house. Lucky for me , the shops were only down the road. I locked the door and shit the gate behind me and started walking.
"Holly ! Wait " I hear a shout.
Having fear , covering my emotion I turn around . it was harry. I screwed my face as tears started to fall out of my closed eyes. I carried on to walk and eventually harry started to run.
"Please " I say and before I know it in pulled into a hug.
I hugged into him , otherwise I have a strong feeling that he would hurt me.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry " he cries into my hair.
"Harry , my trust is broken. " I say , pulling away softly and I carried on walking.
"Please at least let me take you out for some food " he begs in front of me.
I wipe my tears , which soon contained , fury and tiredness.
"But please don't hurt me " I half smile and frown.
"I I promise okay. Trust me in this one " he says . his eyes were all puffy and red and a layer of thin water coated them , his eyes changed colour like mine.
Depending on what you feel they would change green or blue. They were green now.
"Well , please let's go." He says.
"The boys are gonna meet us there " he smiles as we got in the car.
No no no no no
But I'm not ready. I didn't even want to be near harry. He makes my life a living hell.
I nodded with a lump in my throat , regretting coming.

We didn't talk about anything. The deafening silence , making me have heavy breathing. I don't even know what's gonna happen.
"We're here now " he turned his head slowly , and smiled.
I returned it ...

We walked into nandos of course and already the boys were there. Thy all gave me dirty-ish looks but smiled shortly after. I felt bad for Simon , it's all my fault.
I smiled sheepishly , a million tears ready to break through any time now.
Harry sat down and the only space that was left was imbetween harry and Simon. Awkward.

"So what would you like " Harry' asks me.
"Chicken , mild and chips please " I say politely.
"Yeah I'll have that too. "
I just nod and face the other way.
Whilst everyone else was focused on ordering way they wanted harry slowly shifted his body over towards me.
He looked into my eyes and started to hold onto my cheeks , he kissed me . I didn't want to and wasn't going to ever. He broke my heart.
I struggled to pull him off me till I slapped him across the face.
Everyone's staring at us , I take a deep breathe and leave my seat and run outside.

Why ?