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Meditation.
It's like you're going to another universe to release the negative energy you have been feeling. To let go of the demons that were attached to you at the hip. Needing something to hold onto.
Feeling your stressed leave your body as you focus on better things that are to come. Focus on what matters because life comes with small inconveniences and it's up to you on how you deal with those small inconveniences.
But it felt so good after a long day of stress and work, to come home and release it all. Then to start it all over again the next day. It was a constant cycle but I loved the cycle.
Meditation.
Coming to a closed chapter of the stress from the long day you had. Releasing everything you had felt in that day. Feeling free, released.
Meditation.
Freedom within the mind.
Alexa played "Just Be A Man" By Toni Braxton quietly in the back as I pulled out my vanilla scented candles and lit them before running my bath water. Today was Sunday and like I did every Sunday I catered to myself. I put Dr. Teals "Foaming Bath with Pure Epsom Salt and Hemp Seed Oil".
It had been a long week. Yesterday I spent my entire day grading papers half drunk. I was pretty sure that I had half-graded the majority of the essays I had them write over pickanninies. The fee that I had actually read was great. Seemed like they paid attention more than what it seemed.
This weekend had gone by faster
Stripping, I grabbed my bathtub tray and sat it down, along with a book. "Sacred Woman." A guide to healing the mind and soul of a black woman.
I sat back and relaxed my back up against the back of the tub letting my muscles relax. My body started to feel comfortable which is when I grabbed my book and started back where I left off. Let the book take my thoughts for what felt like an entire lifetime, my phone started ringing causing me to sigh.
"Hello." I sat up, putting my phone on speaker before sitting back and closing my eyes.
"Elani." I heard my little sister; Sol says on the other line.
"Yes, honey."
"Do you think you could come and get me?" She asked, I heard the yelling in the background. The yells of a distressed teenage boy close in age to Sol
"Is he yelling at you like that?" I opened my eyes.
"Yes, I'll tell you when you get here." She hung up quickly.
I paused for a quick second before it hit me that she need me to come and get her. I got out of the tub, blowing out my candles. I dried myself off and slid on my panties and then some random black sweats with a white tee shirt.
I grabbed my keys and phone before leaving out the door wondering what the hell she just got herself into.
Pulling up to the location she had sent. I saw her and a boy yelling at one another, whom I'm guessing was her child's father. With a baby, my niece, on her left hip.
"Fuck you bitch ass nigga!" She yelled before grabbing her bags and a car seat.
"Alright then bitch!" He retorted before going back into the house slamming the door behind him.
Sol opened the passenger door saying a mumbled "hello" to me then put my niece in the backseat along with the bags she had in her hand. She got back in the front seat sighing. I sat in the driveway for a minute examining her face. She had a black eye that was turning purple and a busted lip. I sighed before pulling off.
We sat in silence for a while before Sol spoke up.
"I'm just so sick of him, all he wants to do is argue I literally can't with him. It's just so tiring. I don't want to wake up and just argue every damn day. It's not healthy for me or Kai. Then it's over nothing." She vented.
"You let him hit on you like that?" I frowned, but I kept my eyes on the road not wanting her to see me cry.
"I didn't let him do anything. It just happened." She shrugged, laying her head up against the window.
"In front of Kai?"
"No. She was in the other room."
"This your last time going back right? I can't keep trying to help you Sol just for you to keep going back." I shook my head.
"I don't know."
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I don't want the chapters in this book to be long whatsoever. I like them short.
this book will probably be longer though. Maybe 50 chapters but I be getting lazy and lose motivation.
