Zervis One-Shot (Book 3)

To the future

It's been a few decades since I've last seen Zeref. We both parted ways to find what we needed to work on in ourselves. The first few weeks were the hardest and I still find myself struggling to except it happened even after so many years...

I've grown old, my golden locks have now grown to a silver tone. My eyes a once bright emerald green, toned down to mucky green. I sigh watching the trees lose its leaves once again. He loved trees and I have grown to think he sends me them for protection when he can't anymore. A tear springs from my eye remember how sad he was when I told him I saw trees get cut down.

I go to the window to look around town, people walk their pets some walk hand in hand. I to remember holding his hand when we get home from work. He's scold me when I ran ahead and told me to be carful so I don't fall. I also remember those days when we go window shopping, how he'd buy me ice cream and wipe my face when I got to messy. I smile to myself as I pace around my room. Remembering the times we shared, the laughs and romantic nights too.

I turn off the lights and head to my bedroom, leaving the silence behind with only the tick tick of the clock being my only friend in the house. I turn the corner and see my bedroom down the hallway. Once again, the memories of him come back. He would carry me every night to bed, each time making me feel like a princess. I would hold his neck and kiss his cheek thanking him for this. Sometimes he would toss me on the bed cause he knew how it made me happy. Now, I walk down alone with no one to hold my hand or kiss my cheek.

As I enter I see the only thing to remember him by. A drawing or Peter Pan as us, him holding a teddy bear while I hug him from behind and many other of us but the one I have right over my head is the one where he first smiled. I remember that day so clearly, the first real talk I had with him. We were only getting into adulthood. Not knowing what was going to happen. Looking at the photo I remember saying I thought you didn't smile and with him to respond with now I have a reason too.

"I wonder, will I ever be the reason he smiles again?"

I crawl into the empty bed, leaving the side that should've been his open like always. I caresses the spot pretending he's gonna show up any minute now and say sorry for being late from work. Even now, I'm not sure if this will ever be seen by him.

Wiping the tears from my nose I recall the night things ended and how he said well met again some day. Since then, I've been waiting for that day to come but some part of me knew my prayers got answered and for that I'm happy for him. If I do see him again and I see the women he was meant to be with, I'll smile and remember the days when we talked till sunrise. How the nights were filled with cuddles and talks of our future together.

The tears hit the pillow like they always do as I repeat the words over and over to myself in the hopes that maybe he's can hear them.

"I love you and I will always love you. We may not be together right now but you still hold my heart. I'm sorry for breaking my promise, I'm sorry for hurting you after I said I wouldn't. I'm sorry for leaving you alone and I sorry I couldn't be better. I hope we can be friends because I will always need you. I regret not a single thing. The only thing I regret is how I was and how I lost you...remember me smiling and jumping on you when you came home and remember that when that day comes, I'll run to you over and over. Till we meet again my silly, iloveyou💖