The lonely wolf [bxb]

Am I dying?

(EDITED)

(Elias)

I'm dying. That's the only thing I could think of as I lay on the dirty ground in the dungeon they brought me to. I've always wanted a quick death, not this. I guess this was a punishment for me because I've failed my parents. I was weak and pathetic. I don't even know what title I had that made my parents hate me so much. I'm sure I wasn't an omega because I would have felt it after weeks of being in here.

'What's one thing you would want right now?' Forest asked immediately as I was closing my eyes. He asked me to stay awake, but I couldn't. Not when there was so much pain that made it hard for me to focus.

'I missed having a peanut butter and jelly sandwich.' He laughed and scoffed at my reply.

'I knew you would say that, I kind of miss it too, but it wasn't my thing.' I chuckled in my mind, slightly dazed by the fact that I could still hear myself talk even though my father had cut my tongue out, leaving me mute. That's not the only problem, though; during that time, my vocal cords got damaged, so I was unable to make any form of sound.

Well, Forest had healed my tongue enough to make me eat, even though it happened in his wolf form, I was still affected by it because we are one. I still wasn't used to it, but with practice, I was able to eat. My taste was back too, thanks to Forest, who worked his magic on me. Sporadically I can't help but cringe at the thought of having half of a tongue. It's a foreign feeling that I'm not used to.

'Remember, it was the only thing I would enjoy eating; you, on the other hand, I loved bread and cheese sandwiches.' He agreed with me while sighing.

'I wish things would be different, you know; I wish I knew what we were and why our parents did this to us.' I agreed with him, but for now, we would not find out.

'I'm dying Forest, our mate rejected us. No one wanted us, not even our parents. I wish things were different, but it's not.' He sighed as a whimper left him. I knew he was taking this hard, no matter how he tried to be strong for both of us. I will forever have respect for him because if it wasn't for him, I wouldn't have survived before.

'Let me take over.' He begged for the hundredth time, but I refused. He already suffered for two years with me being locked away, not knowing what he was going through; I just couldn't do that to him again. The door opened suddenly, and I saw one of the warriors here walking in with a look of pity in his eyes. He always has that look before he…

“It's been two weeks since you've been here, and you're still naked?” He asked as he shook his head. I looked at him, confused as to why he was acting as if he cared when I already knew why he was there. I wish I could tell him what was on my mind, but I couldn't talk thanks to my father. My mother laughed when he was doing it too; she said that I deserved it, and knowing that I was unable to talk, I wasn't going to be able to tell anyone what they did to me. He shook his head and opened the cell, then made his way towards me.

I looked at his hand, expecting the needle he always walked with. It was there, yes, like a new toy that was made just for me. Wolf's bane, that's what he would inject me with. He was doing it to please his Alpha I know, that's why I wasn't mad at him. My body was filled with poison, slowly eating away my flesh so I could finally be free from this world. I want to die, no, I hope to die.

It would be so much better than this. He left after he was done, the only one that was giving me the strength I needed was  Forest. We haven't eaten or drunk anything for the two weeks we have been here. We haven't taken a proper bath or brushed our teeth for years. I forgot what that was like. My breath smells bad; thanks to Dad for doing me a favor so I wouldn't have to talk.

My hair felt slimy to my touch whenever I could run my hands through it. I didn't even get the luxury of using a toilet; if I wanted to do a number two, it was in the corner of the cell. The smell here was bad, not only bad, but it was sickening. My mate made it, so I wasn't able to live because he didn't want me. I wanted to thank him, though, because I would be able to be free of this world once and for all.

'Come on Elias, don't close your eyes on me now.' Forest begged, but I was just too sleepy.

'I'm sorry, Forest, just know that I tried. I apologize for everything.' I finally closed my eyes, letting the darkness consume me, which was what I wanted from day one. I wasn't certain if I was dead or alive, I didn't care. I was just too tired to care. Did I miss what it was like before all of this? I guess so. I sometimes thought about how my family treated me with love and adoration.

How they would spoil me and give me everything I wanted, but I had to learn the hard way. I was only an experiment for them, like a ticket to greatness. Once I failed, they finally showed their true colors. I deserved this, right? I deserved it all. I didn't want any help or any pity. I didn't want any tears or any happiness. What I wanted was to finally be free, to have peace. I have it now I guess, so I should be happy the moon goddess listened to me this time.

At least I wouldn't suffer anymore, at least Forest wouldn't suffer anymore. My life, as we know it, was over when I turned sixteen. This was my destiny, and I'm going to fulfill it. This world would be a better place without me, my parents and sibling would be better off without me. My pack, who kicked me out and turned their backs on me, would be better off without me. I'm finally free of this world, and that's all I could ask for.