Love Sick 101

Good To Bad

"Sorry, I didn't see you." It was the new guy (Charlie), oh my god, keep calm Maddie don't do anything stupid, be normal. "Its okay," I said and smiled at me and he held out his hand to help me up. As I got up we both bend down and picked up my books and my pencils and pens that had fallen out of my pencil case. As we stood up again he handed me some of my stuff that he had picked up. "Thanks, hey you're the new guy right?" I asked even though I already knew he was. "Yeah, but I'm pretty sure you already knew that," he said and smiled at me. That smile. His teeth were perfectly even and white and as soon as he smiled I couldn't help but smile back. "Um yeah I did, just trying to make conversation," I said and looked at the ground, still smiling. "Do you also know my name?" he asked as if I knew everything about him already. "Ah no I don't," god I was the worst liar ever so I think he figured I was lying. He chuckled a little, "You know you're a really bad liar." Dam it! His laugh gave me butterfly's and all of a sudden I got nervous that he was even talking to me. "Um, well yeah, I have, ah, heard that a lot" I said stuttering a lot, crap what is wrong with me. Dam you and your attractiveness Charlie! "Well I better go cause I'm meeting a friend," I said and started to walk away. "Wait, you forgot something," I turned around and walked back. "What did I forget?" I asked waiting for him to give me what I had forgotten, "You forgot to tell me your name," he said and smiled a big goofy smile. I giggled a little, "It's Maddie." "Well, ill see you 'round, Maddie," he said as he walked off.

I started walking towards where I was meant to meet Tyler, again. As I reached the spot I saw him leaning against his car waiting for me. "Took your time," he said cheekily and opened the car door for me. I giggled still thinking about Charlie "Yeah I just, um, kind of ran into someone." As I threw my books and bag over into the back seat I sat down and just smiled like an idiot. "Oh god, who is he?" Tyler asked. He knew me so well, it was almost scary. "What are you talking about?" I asked him as if I had no idea what he was on about. "Maddie you have you 'I just met the most perfect boy ever' face on, who is he?" he looked at me with a sheepish face and started the car. "okay fine, you cant get mad but, it's the new guy, Charlie. I know you told me to stay away form him but we bumped into each other and then he helped me up and picked up my books and I got nervous! I never get nervous around guys, but he made me nervous," I said it all very fast so that Tyler wouldn't interrupt. As I caught me breath, I waited for Tyler to say something. I was expecting him to say something like 'he was only acting, I told you to stay away from him for a reason, he is bad news' or something like that. But he didn't say anything. Only silence and the sound of the cars engine as we drove down the street.

"Tyler, are you going to say anything?" I said, kind of worried that he was really mad or that he was going to ignore me for the rest of the drive home. "I don't want to ruin the afternoon okay, so lets talk about him tomorrow." I just nodded. There had to be more of a reason as to why Tyler wanted me to stay away from Charlie so badly. I get the ways he got expelled were horrible but he seemed like such a good guy. I had a really bad feeling that Charlie and Tyler knew each other and something really bad must have happened. The car ride to my house was awkward because we didn't talk but thankfully it was only a 5 minute car ride. Living in a small town meant everything was close to anything. You could walk down the street and that would be your best friends house. You could walk a block of to and there would be the mall and everything was only about a 10 minute drive away.

When we pulled up to my drive way I could hear yelling from inside the house. I forgot about my books and my bad, I jumped out of the car ran up to the front door and sprinted inside to see what was going on. I could hear my brother yelling "MUM IM 19! IF I WANT TO GO ON A FREAKING PLANE TO PARIS WITH MY GIRLFRIEND FOR 2 WEEKS THEN IM GOING!" Shit. My brother and my mum were having another fight. Their last fight ended with three broken plates and two holes in the wall. I ran towards the yelling. "YOU ARE NOT GETTING ON A PLANE, YOU CAN GO ON A BOAT TO AN ISLAND FOR TWO WEEKS, YOU CAN DRIVE TO THE CITY AND STAY THERE FOR TWO WEEKS BUT NO WAY IN HELL ARE YOU GETTING ON A PLANE!" I heard I smashing noise as I ran into the kitchen to find my mother in tears and brother red faced with rage. "STOP IT! PLEASE" I yelled at them and they both turned to look at me. I was crying now to. I hated it when they fought. I know they only fought because they missed dad and Marry and they were upset most of the time but fighting only made it worse.

They both turned to look at me, my brothers face went from rage to shock. He knew I hated them fighting and he hated seeing me upset. "Maddie I ...." I didn't let him finish. "DON'T BOTHER TRYING TO EXPLAIN WHY YOU WERE FIGHTING! IM SICK OF HEARING YOU BOTH APPOLIGIZE SO MUCH! JUST STOP FIGHTING. Please I cant take it anymore. I miss them to you know, we all miss them but fighting isn't going to change anything." They both didn't say anything and that's good because I wasn't in to mood. They had turned my good and happy mood to sad and horrible.

I heard foot steps behind me, it was Tyler. Crap he was never around when my family had a fight and I never wanted him to be, it was so embarrassing and I didn't want him to feel any more sorry for me than he already did. I turned around, tears streaming down my face and as I saw his face turn to shock. I ran up to him, took his hand and dragged him up to my room with me. "Sweetie wait!" I heard my mum yell as Tyler and I ran up the stairs. I didn't reply I just started crying harder and harder. "Maddie what's going on? Why are you crying and why was there shattered plates on the kitchen floor?" He sounded so worried. I didn't want him t be worried, I never wanted anyone to know about the troubles with my family ever since the accident but I guess I had to tell him now. Great, just perfect.

As we reached my room I opened the door, pulled Tyler inside and slammed it shut. I tried to stop myself from crying and I whipped away my tears. "Seriously Maddie what's wrong? What's going on?" He looked at me as if he was about to cry because he was so worried. "Tyler," I said almost in a whisper "I'm so sorry, I dint want you to see that." I started to cry again. I was thinking bout that day again. After I heard the scream, my brother, Brad, ran into my room and he was crying, Brad never cries and I mean never. He didn't say a word he just pulled me into the lounge room my mother was on the ground in tears. I ran over to her and all she said was "The TV, look at the TV," so I did. Dad and Mary's plane had crashed and there were no survivors.

"Maddie! Maddie please!" I heard Tyler's voice, he was crying and freaking out. I was on the floor in his arms, I must have fainted. Crap. "I'm so sorry," was all I could say as I sat up and looked at him. I leaned towards him and started to wipe his tears away, he just grabbed my hands and said, "Maddie please, you were crying and shaking and then you collapsed, please tell me what's going on. I'm so worried about you right now." I didn't know what to say. I opened my mouth to talk but words didn't come out so I stood up and reached down to help him off of the floor. He took my hands as he got up and I gave him a little smile to let him know I was okay now and I wasn't going to cry anymore. But he didn't smile back, his eyes still showed me that he was worried so I sighed and went to sit, cross legged on my bed. "Come sit, please, I'll tell you anything you want to know." He walked towards my bed and sat down in front of me.

"Okay so, you know about how um," I sniffled and a tear dropped out of my eye just thinking about it. No! don't cry, stop Maddie. "Yeah the day we found out about Dad and Mary, Mum had a break down and she wouldn't come out of her room for two weeks. Brad and I had to make her food and bring her drinks, most of the time she refused to eat and she was just so depressed. Then once she was ok enough to come out of her room her and brad started fighting a lot over the stupidest things. They didn't notice how sad I was all of the time. I would cry myself to sleep every night and I stopped eating. I didn't tell anyone how upset I was and I didn't act upset because I needed to help mum and stop Brad and mum from fighting. Plus everyone else had their own problems so I didn't want them to worry about me. I know that people think of me as the girl who lost her dad and sister but I don't want them to think of me as the depressed girl that didn't eat. I wanted to tell you but I couldn't. I don't know why but I just didn't want you to know how weak I was. I'm so sorry." Another tear dropped from my eye, I tried to fight it, I tried so hard but it wasn't working.

"Oh my god, Maddie," was all Tyler said and I saw a tear fall from his eye as he hugged me. We were hugging for about like 5 minutes. No talking, just silence. Tyler pulled away and cupped my face, "Next time just come and talk to me okay, you scared me so much and I don't want that to happen to you again. I think you need to get out of the house tonight. Do you want to sleep at mine?" He asked while wiping away the tears from my cheeks. I nodded and went to pack a bag. Tyler was the most amazing friend ever. Mum let me stay at his and let him stay here overnight because she knows we are only friends and we have known each other forever!