Alone together (Akatsuki kittens)

Logical responses out the door

Hello, bitches!!! How are my favorite ducklings in the whole world doing?

I stared at Deidara in concern. "Deidara, if this topic is hard for you to talk about, you don't need to do it."

Deidara shook his head. "The very moment I was forced to join the Akatsuki, I lost myself. I was forced to listen to a leader who I didn't want to follow. But I had to because I was weak. I was always the weakest. The only reason I wasn't attacked by anyone was because Konan was always interfering and my only purpose and usefulness fell onto my abilities. But that didn't change the fact that I was the weakest. They would never let me forget. They always cornered me and whispered or outright said it. 'Weakling,' 'worthless,' and 'useless.'" Deidara said, hugging his arms to himself, making himself smaller.

Konan stepped over and put a hand on his shoulder. "Deidara used to be a female. But he made a jutsu that was supposed to make him as strong as any male. As you can see, it backfired." She explained. Deidara huffed. "Yeah, well, it's my punishment of sorts, I guess. I was trying to change who I was in a way I wasn't completly comfortable with. These are just the consequenses of my actions.

The more I thought about it, the more angry I became. How stupid can men be?! These men that I let inside my house. They abused a girl to the point of making her change her whole identity and being! I new they were killers. That's what their world brought them up to be. But what they did to Deidara is messed up on a level I can't even begin to describe. Mentaly, I don't even think that Deidara will be able to recover fully. And to think the Akatsuki was sitting with me during breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Pretending they did nothing wrong.

And thinking back on it now, Deidara was always making sure to sit between Konan and I. It was so subtle, I didn't bat an eye at it. Everyone always picked on and belittled him.

"It worked for a while. Everyone stayed away. But when they noticed nothing else changed about me, they went back to their old ways. I panicked. And so instead of shutting down or running away, I lashed out at them and fought them head on. Even when I ended up bloodied and bruised, most fights ended in draws. They would leave me after that, but I never trusted the ends of the fights. At the end of the day, we were ninjas. We fight dirty. We have no honor. Backstabbers. I never once let my guard down, even if I was beaten black and blue. It kept me on my toes. It is why I'm obsessed with my jutsu. If I play with a single slab of clay, it both reassures me as well as reminds them that I will survive in the end and that I am just as dangerous as any of them. I'm pretty much sending them a message. Them thinking I'm a pyromaniac as well as psychotic is the best way of telling them that if I have no regard for my safety, I would obviosly wouldn't give any shits about their shitty-ass safety." Deidara said... Holy shit, does Dei-Dei realize he's a genius?

I took a deep breath. "Before you say anything, I'm just letting you know, I don't pity you, it's just sympathy." I said. Deidara raised an eyebrow. "What are you taliking ab-" He is cut off as I envelop him in my arms. He is stiff for a second before relaxing. I can see Konan's lips rise a bit in a sad smile from the corner of my eye. I release Deidara and look into his eyes. "Sorry about that. I just thought you might have needed a hug. How do you feel?" I ask. Deidara looks down for a second before looking up. "Like I'm not invisible anymore?" He responded, though, it sounded more like a question.

"In a good or a bad way?" I ask. He chews on his lower lip in thought. "In a good way. Like, you see me, but you don't think there's anything wrong with me. Other than Konan, I've never felt like this with anyone else." He explained and he looked so proud. Jesus Christ.

"Okay, that's a good start. Next question, how do you feel in your own skin?" I know this question is risky, but if there is going to be any healing, the hardest obstacles must be tackled down first. "Geez, I don't really know. I changed when I was still a teenager, and anyone knows that teenagers are just bombs of hormones."

"Which would explain many of Deidara's problems." Konan chimmed in. Deidara let out a sound of betrayal.

"No, I'm not saying that you're a problem. You're a perfectly good human being." She reassure him as she gives him a side hug.

"All I'm saying is that your hormones probably never settled. It's most likely the root cause of why you are very emotional or sentimental. It's not to say that many people aren't like that, but you are showing it more than the average person. That also explains why your fight or flight instinct changed." The more she spoke, the more the bells began to go off in Deidara's head.

"You're right. I used to run away and shut down, but when I changed, my fear stopped turning into terror and instead became into anger.
I never noticed until now because it felt so natural then. And it still feels more natural to want to show all of the Akatsuki how dominant I can be.
Just thinking of submitting myself feels weird and odd, yet, the mere thought of them submitting to me brings me a strange sense of satisfaction." He declared with a proud smile.

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Konan and I stood there with frozen, horrified smiles.

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Konan: ^V^
Dalia: TvT

I honestly have no idea how I came up with this ending. At first, I started out with a really sad story, but it slowly progressed into... a crackfic. I can never choose a theme, angst or crack, so my mind takes hold of the reigns and says, "Hey! Why not both? It pretty much sums up everything that makes up Gen-Z anyway. Why not give Gen-Z even more fuel?" and now we are here.