Memoirs of My Heart

I'll Be Happy Again..!

We were there

Walking side by side

Hand in hand

In the bright daylight.

Talking and laughing

Happy in our own little world

It was 'love at first sight'

And an instant connection.

Messages, phone calls, movies...

It was all so perfect and fine

Smiling, caring and sharing

It was all sunshine.

Fun, excitement and surprises

Made our world so beautiful

Free from worldly worries

I made my dreams, all fanciful.

Love makes us feel bold

I realised this while with you

Our lives were so different

But it didn't matter

When I was with you.

And then... came other commitments

We got busy with our own lives...

Less phone calls, messages few

And so, the distance between us grew.

You got busy with your own life

I pretended to be busy with mine

Customary hellos, formal conversations

Now there wasn't much

Left in our relation.

But how could this

Bright and shining flame

Flicker and die in pain?

This was not what I had dreamt

Aren't dreams meant to come true?

Too much I tried from my side

But you seemed happy

To ignore it all

No messages

No phone calls.

You were happy in your life

I was grieving in mine

You made me dream happy dreams

Which now, would never come true.

Wish I saw this at that time

Before I fell for you

Now there's nothing left

Except painful memories

And bitter smiles.

No matter how much I try

To forgive, forget and laugh

But deep inside me

I still feel lost.

Like there is nothing left of me

Like I'm all hollow inside

With a heart which knows

Nothing but pain.

No matter how hard I try

To forget all about you

But the more I try

The more I remember you.

Your smile. Your face. Your eyes.

And the memories...

Oh, every single time

They hit so hard

Almost suffocating me!

And now I feel so alone...

Lost in my colourless and dark world

There is only night here

No moon. No stars.

Do you ever feel the pain?

No, I'm sure you don't.

You're happy in your own

Blissfully ignorant world.

You don't care

You never truly did.

But you know what

I have stopped caring too

'Cause now I know what you are.

I've realized many things

Much more than you'll ever know

And I'll never miss you anymore.

You don't deserve

To be in my thoughts

And you don't deserve me.

And I know I'll be fine again

I'll heal. I'll be complete

'Cause I know time

Is the greatest healer

Time heals all wounds.

I'll see the night end

I'll see the sun rise and shine

And everything will be

Bright and perfect again.

'Cause there will always be

Rays of sunlight in my life

To illuminate my dark days

Always.

And I'll be happy again.

I'll be happy again.

- Moj

Hello, my friends!

Finally, you made it till the end..! ;-)

So tell me, my friends, some of your experiences of 'love at first sight.'

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Lots of Love,

Saroj Singh

xoxo :-) ;-)