criminal minds imagines

Emily prentiss-angst

HIIIII LOVELIES it's been so so long sorry I've been away but I'm back to writing and we're starting with angst ☹️☹️☹️ anyways this one will be a king one but I'll try to shorten it up <333
Enjoy loves

"I just don't understand"
"I'm so so sorry y/n she passed"
"There's no way" you say as you try to push past JJ to see Emily
She pulls you back and takes your hand and says "I can't let you in there,I can assure you that the doctors are doing everything they can"
"I need to say goodbye to her cmon" a moment of silence went passed,that's when the waterworks started "JJ please" you managed to chock out between sobs and cries.

Twisting your key to let yourself in to your apartment the second the door closed you completely broke down, you didn't eat,take off your makeup or even get dressed you just cried and cried your emotions away. You couldn't take it you needed someone, that person the person that you trusted with your entire life yet you knew that wasn't possible.

~the next day~
Saying you were exhausted was an understatement,you had eyebags and you couldn't keep your eyes open for more than a minute. Coffee got you throughout the day though, after your first coffee you felt somewhat alive then once you went through briefing with the team you had your second coffee.
"Hey sweets don't ya think you've had enough coffee,maybe you could have some tea with honey??" Garcia stated.you had just cried for a whole night and you were no where near done grieving you didn't want a tea you wanted Emily back "look penny I love you and you know that but I can't deal with this right now" and with that you left

Penolope watched as you walked off then Derek approached her "she ok???" He asked
"Honestly Derek I don't know"
"Just give her some time..how about you??"(Imagine they have there own conversation)

After having your third coffee hotch called you to his office
"You wanted to see me?"
"Just wanted to see how your doing"
"Fine...why"
"Y/n please be honest"
"I am being honest...I'm fine"
He gave you that kinda look a mother gives when her children are lying
"Fine,im not doing good,I can barely sleep,I cry my way through the night,I'm way more paranoid than usual and I can't stop thinking about her....is that what you wanted to hear?" You blurted out with an attitude that surprised you more than Hotch. 

The same thing happend the less sleep you got, the more coffee you drank made you snappier and ruder yet the third day was your worse you couldn't take it. Regretfully you snapped at both JJ and Reid in the morning and when you worked this particular case you felt anger surge throughout you anyone mentioned the unsubs name
Ian Doyle